I have just one mandatory gift left to attain this holiday season! Luckily this one isn’t until the 24th. However, I have to say I probably had the most perfect gift ideas for every single member of my family except the one person I did get for the family Secret Santa. Like really, I was thinking about this weeks in advance, all the different lovely things I could get for any one of my aunts… :( But I didn’t get them for Secret Santa. How horrible. However, I feel I do owe it to my Secret Santa to get the best possible, most thoughtful gift. I feel like some of the guys in the family really get kind of overlooked because it’s so hard to get them anything they might like…

As I was looking at gift guides I came across the most amazing one on except it’s completely unhelpful for my current gift-giving predicament. However! I found the curator of the list, designer of her eponymous line Jenni Kayne, to have impeccable taste. And for that I must share this list.



Mast Brothers chocolate? Ugh, amazing.


Cire Trudon anything? Ugh, amazing.

In fact, last year my mom asked me straight up what I wanted for Christmas… I asked for a Cire Trudon candle. $100. For a candle. She was a little incredulous at the value of such an item. But let me tell you: worth it. So worth it. The candle is sometimes lit at the foyer table on special days only (as in, any day I want to make special). If I could have a Cire Trudon Marie Antoinette bust, a room spray, matches, more candles… you know I would. But it’s so rare that these frivolous wants trump expensive needs or big-ticket purchases such as shoes or a leather jacket…


Hanging class terrarium? Ugh, amazing. I’ve always wanted one but don’t really bother. I rather gift one.


I find buying these sort of mid-price point items rather difficult for oneself but much much much easier to buy as a gift.

Now a $500 pair of shoes? YES. A $200 silk shirt? Naturally. A skincare routine that costs somewhere between the silk shirt and a pair of shoes? There’s no arguing that.

But $12 fancy matches? A $50 Malin + Goetz Cannabis candle? They’re harder to justify, these erstwhile niceties that I have only ever had one instance of before? Harder to repurchase or consider again.

I’m so excited for this week and next week and the week after! Parties, celebrations, family time.

Shopping Season & Misc.

My heart is pitter-pattering for a lot of things lately (which bothers me). Mainly because it’s the holiday season and there are so many purdy things to be had. (Excuses, excuses…)

But small case in point:


How gorgeous do these loaves of bread look? My kitchen has a similar bread nook and ~trust~ it looks nothing like this. Also, I just randomly stumbled upon this photo two minutes ago. It’s a SIGN. Actually I don’t believe in signs. But: Mmm, bread. Mmm, a rustic kitchen. Mmm, a paper bag with French writing on it. RIDIC.

Anyway. There’s an Anthony Green concert in January I want to attend. Though I’m wondering if he’s just playing old solo songs because his last solo album was super flat and mediocre if you ask me. And I hate saying that about my main musical man.

There are tons of movies I need to go see this weekend. I’m pretty excited for a little solo movie adventuring. No talking, no listening, no thinking. Just pure visceral visual stimulation. Mmmm.

I should perhaps also stop Mmmmm-ing.

Also Christmas music by Relient K? BEST. But of course I am also cycling through Christmas albums like A Santa Cause 1 and 2: It’s a Punk Rock Christmas. Uh but these are all from the early 2000s… are there any newer rock Christmas albums out?! Or is that a thing rock bands no longer do? Because I can’t seem to find any newer Christmas rock albums… Or I’m just not really as “in the loop” as before.

Also… for not wearing my heels very often, why do I always want more? I should probably work on getting *shelves* installed in my closet first… before continuing to crave more heels. But ah ah ah… sale season. And Gianvitto Rossi for Altuzarra… :( :( Want. Though I’m sure the want is very temporary. BESIDES I already have the slingback in nude suede. I’ve worn them 3x…


However, how interesting that the d’orsay heels are made of wool! Not suede. WOOL. That’s fairly innovative for a heel. However, the heel height on these babies is perhaps what keeps me from wearing the nude suede pair very often. They’re like valet to dinner table. And I don’t “go out to dinner” often enough… I go out to family brunch more often. Which definitely calls for my Prada flats or Sam Edelman sandals. Note to self: wear heels more often.

OK there, I’ve talked myself out of wanting the heels. That linen tee tho… Mmm, linen. OK that was my last one, promise!

Things to do:

  • Read. Fucken forreal.
  • Write letter back to Maria. She just sent me her new address.
  • Go to the movies.
  • What am I doing to lose weight by 12/20? Or is this a lost cause? Oops.

Quote of the Day:

“Meaning is man-created. And because you constantly look for meaning, you start to feel meaninglessness.”

I like floating around in my own meaninglessness. Just a speck of space dust marveling at all the other specks of dust and how they make all of space a beautiful sight, one speck at a time.

Waiting for:

  • Christmas Party time.
  • Thursdays. Serial podcast. OH YAS.
  • 2 Fedex packages. Eeeeee!!!

I feel like Thanksgiving just came and went so very quickly… I want that feeling again. Being among a lot of really loving family members, drinking, eating, feeling merry. I went to my aunt’s house last night to pick up some rice to accompany my dinner and she offered me tequila. Lulz. I refused but I WAS TEMPTED. Family and merry times? I’m so there.

I should also perhaps mention I had a cat for two months. She and I are no longer together. Charlotte got a terminal illness and she was put to sleep. Our time together was so short-lived. I haven’t even moved her food tray away yet. It just happened so suddenly. I was only barely getting to know the kitty. She only lived for 10 months. What a sad way to go. Poor kitten.

Will this year ever end?

Longest, most eventful year to date.

Paper Weight

I love ridiculous beautifully aesthetic things. Lately I’ve been craving high-quality paper…

A $19 calendar ecologically produced in Japan using pH-balanced and chlorine-free paper. Postalco Wall Calendar for 2015 on Kaufmann Mercantile (Discover Better Products).

The paper looks to possess a very nice grain and weight based on the photos alone and naturally the minimal aesthetic is appealing because it seems so clean, so blank slate, so ready for the new year.

Yesterday I was perusing one of my favorite fashion blogs, Fashion Squad, when I saw it: Le Sac en Papier. A seemingly innocuous bag, made of paper, masquerading as catch-all, trash can, holder of things, but more importantly: brilliant design.

Let’s for one second forget about her deliciously beautiful vintage Bertoia Diamond Chairs and the delicate BRASS nesting coffee tables… to focus on the PAPER BAG in the far corner of her home:


I obviously desaturated the whole image save for the bag. And notice how just barely noticeable it is? How wonderfully the bag seamlessly integrates itself into her home?

It makes me want it. A PAPER BAG. With French writing on it self-declaring itself for what it is. Want the specs? 100% recycled natural kraft paper, re-usable, eco-friendly. Throw a small bin inside to preserve the internal integrity of the paper bag, just for good measure though.

Coincidentally my bedroom is in desperate need of a trash receptacle. I say receptacle because this is no ordinary thing. This beautiful paper bag. And the price? $10. But the shipping from France will cost you a little bit more than that.

Sometimes it’s a curse having that eye for quality. But I just want to surround myself with beautiful things. I don’t think it’s a crime to love beautiful design. My pursuit for quality and design has previously been misconstrued as the bad kind of materialism but I don’t think that is necessarily true… I just have an appreciation for these sorts of things.