and none ever did return alive.

My birthday today. Disappointed. No one at school remembered even though I mentioned it so many times. The only people that remembered were the people that I didn’t even tell – my good friends at my old highschool. Talk about depressing. I’ll move on, but I don’t know if I’ll live. That makes only little sense to me. 

Anyway, I’m sure some of the readers of this blog know that I’m quite frankly emo. None of that “I’m so emotional, it hurts” nonsense, but the fact that my life – the part that I don’t reveal – sucks to the extreme. I enjoy depressing insightful things. As an example, take “The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock” by T.S. Eliot . . . it’s so insightful!

And indeed there will be time
For the yellow smoke that slides along the street
Rubbing its back upon the window panes;
There will be time, there will be time
To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet
;
There will be time to murder and create,
And time to for all the works and days of hands
That lift and drop a question on your plate;
Time for you and time for me,
And time yet for a hundred indecisions,
And for a hundred visions and revisions,
Before the taking of a toast and tea. (23-34)

Everyone, whether you admit it or not, acts different depending on the audience. We all wear masks to hide a small part of ourselves. The only problem is that while I wear different faces like the rest of you, all of mine are similar in the respect that the faces are all apathetic and supressed. I’m tired of pretending.

By the way, I put the layout up last night. Ehhh it’s okay, but rather plain and it was a pain to code because I wanted to do something I didn’t know how to do.

Whatever.

7 thoughts on “and none ever did return alive.

  1. Everyone’s emo in high school. TS Elliot is emo. He uses so much symbolism that modes of theory and the whole notion of the English Department changed in reaction to his work. Everyone thinks their lives suck. ITs all ok. Life gets better. We’re SO YOUNG.

  2. Happy Birthday Brigitte~ I want to wish all the good things in the world cause you deserve it! Good luck with school and anything that you every pursue! you can do it!! Happy B-day!!!!!~

  3. Happy belated birthday brigitte. I’m sorry to hear that. That’s what sort of happened on my last birthday. =\ I was sitting in front of the computer crying because I really had nothing to do. =| Well, nothing can really fix it. Don’t worry. have a better birthday next year.

    You know, I can relate to you. I always pretend too. I think everyone does. It’s just the degree of pretending. I never tell people in real life the things I tell people online. Probably some phase everyone goes through eh. Well, if you want to talk, always come to me. =D

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