Dismal Calls

My braces were removed on Monday; it feels strange when I smile.

On Tuesday my brother and I went shopping at Target and then we headed to the movies on the condition that I’d help him with his homework. The only thing playing at that time that we hadn’t seen was Zoom.  The movie was sooo cheesy and funny in a stupid let’s-make-fun-of-this type of way. My brother and I kept looking at each other and busting out laughing because it was so TEH sucks. It was amusing to watch, though. 😀

Anyway, we got home at 7:30 and by 8pm I began the tedious task of helping him write an essay on any topic of his choice. He decided to write about the time when he and I had Starbucks at 11 and went to bed at 4:30. Haha. He finished writing it at 9pm, just as I promised. He’s so fuhreaking lazy when it comes to school work!! I’m almost positive he could grow up to be intelligent, and enrolled in AP and Honors courses if only he tried harder!! Blah, another life goal, eh?

I can’t remember what I did on Wednesday so we’ll skip that day. It may have been uneventful.

I dyed my hair blonde on Thursday, though~! Bwuahaha. Yes, it is random and unexpected but I’ve been wanting to for a while. I like it! After senior pictures I might bleach it… not 100% sure yet… because I totally want something closer to platinum blonde. XD; David went with me!! At the salon, Artika, which I hiiiighly recommend,  some lady asked me if he was my boyfriend! Hahaha. Oh that made me giggle on the inside. She said, “Wow, it’s so nice of him to come to the salon with you!” I had to explain to the lady and my colorist that we’re just “best friends but not publicly” (which is how David describes our friendship). I guess you could say my group of friends are all super close, but we just haven’t specified anything.

Oh, right… we ate at a nice cafe before the salon. After the salon we went to Starbucks [for me] and Coffee Bean [for David]. xD By this time it was something like 3pm and my brother was calling to ask about my whereabouts. -_-; Mom and I haven’t been on the best of terms lately so I didn’t tell her where I was going or anything and just left in the morning. Even then, David and I went to Cerritos College for David to pay some fees for taking classes there. And theeen I got home. 😀

My Auntie Elle’s b-day was on Friday. To celebrate, she invited us to have dinner at The Palm Restaurant in Downtown L.A., about two blocks from the Staple Center. Twelve of us attended, birthday girl included so it was a relaxing event with family only. Because it was her birthday, after we finished our dinner, the waitress brought in two platters of cake – worth about $100 each, I’d say – for free. It had the most delicious chocolate cake in the world. :] Ah, yeah and my linguine with white clam sauce was the bestestest. I want to go back soon! We all greatly enjoyed ourselves. Dinner cost a grand total of $1700. Delicious and worth it. :]

We went to a hotel afterwards for a small “after-party” type thing. I made the stupidest mistake of calling Rob while in the company of Eric.  I will continually ask myself why I’m so naive and stupid. I never ever expect anything from the man, but when his best friend almost positively reassured me of good things I couldn’t help but to have some sort of hope. I’m slowing destroying myself, aren’t I? What I really need to do is stop getting so close to online friends. It doesn’t do me well to dwell on what is not real.

Auntie Elle and I went to the mall after we checked out of the hotel on Saturday. We came to mom’s house and construction had already begun in my room. Mom rented movies, my favorite being Libertine. Hah, that may be due to the fact that I was feeling like shit and it was a depressing movie. I signed on for a few minutes and Rob IMed me to apologize for Eric’s behaviour. He has no reason to apologize! I’ll continue to wallow in my own misery, so whatever. I do it to myself every time; I’m the only one to blame.

I ran 2 miles on the treadmill this morning simply because I told myself not to get online. I read for a while, too. And yet, I’m still crumbling. What’s worse is that this morning as I was glancing through the BestBuy paper I noticed that Dream Theater is coming out with a new DVD and CD from one of their tours and the first thing that came to mind was, I swear, “Ooh, I really want to get this for Eric! I should order it online and just send it to him to surprise him… oh wait, HE’S AN ASS THAT TREATS ME LIKE SHIT!!!!!” It bothers me how I want to do anything and everything for a man that is so fucking ignorant of the good friendships he has. Why can’t I just let it go and forget?

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