Are You Worried?

It amazes me how much I don’t care or worry about myself. If you’re worried about me, don’t. It’s not real. No one can truly care for another person unless they love them and not one of you loves me. I wish my Aunts were here, or that I was back in Alhambra living with one of them. I need someone to hug right now. My brother runs away when I want to hug him and my mother flinches and tries to get me off her; she hates me.

I haven’t slept in 35 hours and I feel like my heart is shattering into a million pieces. I need a warmth that I shall never have.

Don’t mind me, I’m only feeling melancholy.

I finished my AP English summer homework and I return to school tomorrow to face two tests, already. I start Japanese school again on Saturday. Think positive, Bri. You always do.

Fully alive, more than most; ready to smile and love life.

7 thoughts on “Are You Worried?

  1. Interesting take on caring. Yet, I must disagree. Loving someone and caring are closely tied, but you can care without loving someone.

    There is always a grey area in philosophy. Don’t be tricked into thinking everything is only black or only white.

    35 hours? Oh my. I’m going to assume that’s a personal worst for you in the ways of getting rested.

    Oh, wow. Melancholy may be an understatement there.

    Oh, good luck with AP English. AP English classes in high school are always good options and be quite fun if you get the right teacher.

    Oh, I envy you, to be able to take Japanese in a formal classroom.

    I suppose you’ll think this fake, but I do hope you feel less melancholy soon. It really does bother most people to know other people are sad, even if they don’t know them.

  2. My family isn’t too close, and sometimes I want to hug someone, but its not really a hug if no one hugs you back.

    Awesomeness with the Japanese!

    Take care of yourself!

  3. Although I don’t know what’s wrong, you can always talk to me or email me whenever you want to. I read Deanna Marie’s post and she’s really good with words. But, although I don’t know you personally, I DO care about you. We met online, but it doesn’t mean that you don’t/can’t care for a friend.

    As for the hugs comment, ahhh, I don’t like hugs, either. x_x BUT, you’re the exception, how’s that? =D

    35 hours!??? Ahhhh, get some sleeeep, Bri! Is it because you can’t fall asleep? Or or or.. whatttt? =(

    Tests don’t sound too much fun, but I’m sure you’ll do well. Hang in there!

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