So Many Lies Swirling, I’m Suffocating

I suddenly feel very busy, and I want to feel the rush of having a million assignments in one night all due the next day. I only wish I had math homework already. I want to find out what statistics is all about! Yes, I say this now; I reserve complaining for later.

My counselor absolutely adores me. Schedule changes are not to be made until Monday, but she gladly changed mine all around on Thursday. πŸ™‚Β  My schedule is as follows:

  1. AP Biology
    [Yes, I took this class last year, but I dropped it because the teacher Mr. Nelson cannot teach. At all. New teacher rocks. A LOT.]
  2. Art Design
    I need my year of art. This sucks. I am not artistically inclined.
  3. AP Economics
    [Mr. Glasser!!! My favorite teacher, ever. He described cost-benefit analysis using sex. Haha, awesome!]
  4. AP English
    [Mrs. Bean makes me incredibly happy. She’s the funniest, most honest teacher ever. I’m in love with her and her class.]
  5. Honors Physics
    [Yeah, two science classes because I am an idiot. I wanted two math classes, but the class I want is entirely full. *sigh* And my worst nightmare: Mr. Nelson is “teaching” this class… ]
  6. AP Statistics
    [The teacher is more than laid back. In fact, he gave us his cell # to call for help. He’s not rubbing me the right way, ‘cus he’s too confident and he has yet to teach anything.]

I had to drop German III to take AP Bio, but I am determined to stick with it this year and do well. I didn’t like German anyway.

Why must I be so insecure? I mean, I know there will always be someone better than me, hell, anyone is better than me, but I’m so competitive that being anything less than great makes me feel like a lesser person. That means, of course, I feel like a nothing, a nobody. I wish I had Eleni or Jean’s brains. Seriously. It would make my schedule that much easier.

20 thoughts on “So Many Lies Swirling, I’m Suffocating

  1. Glad to hear you like most of year classes. My AP English and Calcs is really big… there’s like 40 ppl in Calc. But some people are leaving both classes so that’s good lol.

  2. I’m glad that most of your teachers are really awesome ^_______^ you’ll have a good time~
    You’re counselor is the best…i wish i had a good one too!

  3. zomg, I hate that feeling too. That there’s someone out there that’s smarter than you…and it’s almost like it’s no use trying. D:

    AP Econ? Wow…my school doesn’t even have that class, but I already know I can’t stand economics. πŸ˜›

    My schedule is crazy too. I’ll have to blog it sometime. 😐 Go AP sciences! XD

  4. Oh wow. The subjects you have all sounds so… hard to me except for that art one. Haha. I’m in an art college right now. :p I love maths too though. πŸ˜€

  5. Basically, I took Honors English instead of AP, AP Music Theory instead of your Art Design, AP French, and had a period as a Music Aide. Block scheduling was not a good thing.

  6. Well, atleast most of your subjects are good, you sound pretty happy with them. πŸ™‚

    I find it quite hard to learn other languages that arent english, my brain just can’t focus properly on it, hehe.

  7. First off, I absolutely love your layout – roses are absolutely gorgeous! ♥

    I’m a junior so my schedule isn’t as hectic as yours, but school is school in my book, and because I’m doing extracurriculars I am SO bogged down with work every day. I miss having “me” time during the week, it seems like that’s only reserved for weekends now – and even then, I don’t get very much of it, because I get even more homework during the weekend!

    Good luck with all your classes, especially your AP ones – it seems like you’ve got mostly good teachers, which is excellent πŸ™‚

  8. wow! I love your layout so much!
    I’m in “yo-lei’s” Darlings section
    Your layout is so dramatic and so meaningful. I really like the rose laying lonely in the side, sorrowful yet so, romantic.,
    And the petals at the top really make it nice too, so.. expressive and colorful.
    I really hope to link you πŸ˜€
    Please click the link
    And come to my site and let me know you got my comment πŸ™‚
    Have a great day ox
    A silly creative boy.

  9. Sometimes, i think that being competitive is good πŸ˜› It keeps your brain working. Well, at least it is better than having nothing to do at all. That would suck. Anyways, you’re really pretty and you’ve got interesting reads here =)

  10. The first few paragraphs: NOT Human
    The last paragraph: HUMAN.

    I probably feel that way how many times in a week (in response to last paragraph). But then I just remind myself that we’re human and that I’m just myself. And man.. when I try to compare myself to someone that does the impossible, I stop myself and say, “Well good for her. She’s representing something great for womankind.” lol So Dell, GOOD FOR YOU. YOU’RE REPRESENTING SOMETHING GREAT FOR ALL WOMANKIND. πŸ™‚

    On a lighter note.. are you fckin crazy for taking all those classes? haha.. More power to you. I’m so proud *tear* When we hang out ( when we’re both free from the binds of schoolwork) I shall hug you with pride. *sniff* lol

    I’m happy that you’re excited for senior year. It’s gonna be fun.. and easy. Just remember that you’ve gone through worse… this will be a breeze.

    So I started college two weeks ago. Yay! BTW, those AP classes WILL HELLA pay off. I saved two classes of English and got booted up to College Reading/Composition whatever it is. lol So WHEN you PASS those APs exams, you’ll breeze right through college.

    P.S. – Did you delete your myspace?

    Much love, BillyMJ. πŸ™‚

  11. daaaamn that’s a rough list of classes. i’m so thankful everyday that i’m no longer in school. i just got tired of the routine and the headaches.

    good luck this year.


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