DayJanuary 4, 2007

The Silence of Sound

I am progressing at a stagnant pace.

Once more, I am me again, more or less. My interests have returned completely, but my personality hasn’t. With the way people have been questioning me, you would think it is a crime to remain off AIM. And I rejected offers to spend time with friends. But it really isn’t personal – usually.

AP Econ test yesterday, as I returned to school. My memory couldn’t have been worse, and the average for the entire class was lower than my painful score of B-. Eh. English project was due today. Unbeknownst to us, it counts as our final. 5 out of 13 of us in 4th period all arrived late because we wanted to sleep in after staying up all night doing the project. I thought I was the only slacker. Apparently not. The thought is comforting; we’re all slackers together!

I’ve been playing Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion for a while now. I spent most of my winter break playing it. Haha. It’s too much fun, and I love my Breton mage. ♥ The lovely Teekwidca is making a site with videos of him playing Oblivion♥, Morrowind♥, and Hitman (which my brother likes).

Bayside and Anberlin are touring together. It’s like a dream come true. Double the dosage of emo all in one night. I’m terribly excited! (:

Deathnote is awesome. I finally got around to buying some of them. I like!

And speaking of money, for the New Year’s party Auntie Elle gave the adults something between $300 and $500 (or my Mom got $500, anyway, but she’s the oldest). I got $200, and my brother got $100. He already spent it, that little kid. :laughing:

One day I’m going to quote “A Worn and Weathered Note” from Morrowind in its entirety. Mind-reader kind of thing. It so correctly explains how I feel.

I try, in vain, to forgive and forget myself as I paste on those plaster smiles and strain to look levelly. I remember. I forget. I forget again. I remember less. I am saddened at the thought that I have forgotten. I am not who I used to be.

I am progressing at a stagnant pace.