DayFebruary 9, 2007

Drown In This With Me

Ackk! I spent most of today coding this layout. I kept getting distracted and then I tried a few new methods here and there so everything took an eternity!! Even now, the layout isn’t complete. I have to change a lot of the sidebar stuff and the search function’s colors and blahblahblah. I’m just so exhausted from staring at my coding all day long. Haha the default picture for this entry describes it all.

My mother and brother went to my uncle George’s house but I didn’t really want to go. I don’t think I would have been very entertained there. I just wasted away my night coding and coding (and talking to Ryan – which was fun).

I have nothing to say for the first time in this blogathon. I’ll admit I cried myself to sleep last night. And then I forget to care about what made me cry, today. Although I should probably care. I supress a lot of emotions; emotions are for the weak. Of course I don’t believe this when it comes to other people, but for myself. I’m empathetic so I have to be as solid as a rock. Instead I’m too far broken and my emotions are invisible stars; if you look hard enough, they’re there.

Piece by piece, and bit by bit
I’ll break this down for you, real slow
But I can’t whisper all of this
and I can’t seem to let this go.

As honest as a photo booth. If I can’t even confide in my blog, whatwho can I confide in? So many things are bothering me. I should at least finish writing my 101 Goals in 1001 Days (in the content area of the sidebar, if you can find it). The sidebar is bothering me. I need to fix it, soon. Tomorrow.

I’ll bleed so much that you won’t believe.