Fuck, I’m sleepy. I could be in my room right now, sleeping, if I wasn’t planning to attend the meeting today from 5 to 8 PM for AS so that rules on campus aren’t changed. Time to try to make a difference. Though, I’m just so tired. And David upset me so now I hope I don’t see him there because I might ignore him or whatevz.
If I’m on anyone’s side, it’s my own; everyone in my group has some varied view of each other and no one is getting along… save for a few, and these sub-cliques are fucking annoying me.
David just called me, and yeah… I didn’t respond the way I would have liked. There was dislike and distrust in my head and I can’t stand feeling that way towards someone I used to call my friend for life/best friend. Times change.
Or maybe I’m just going through depression right now. I can’t wait until my Lamictal dose increases. I feel like shiiiiit.
I HATE FLUCTUATING EMOTIONS. They’re way too far in range… from fucking hyper to I want to die. WTF.