What’s Wrong Now?

Ok. I might sound really apathetic typing this, but all of this hurts. A lot. Better to write it than leave it left unsaid. Though, I really would prefer to write this in my real journal (but then my hand would hurt…) /end stall

On Monday, my mother got into a car accident. Her car is completely crashed and not usable anymore. This whole weekend my mother insulted me saying I’m disgusting, and that there is no hope for us to ever love each other. She says she’s not my mother and I’m not her daughter. She says in a sarcastic way that she hopes I make something of myself, like she expects me not to. Car accident = Karma perhaps? Also, I’m still dealing with Sharon’s lies… but I have not heard a word from LaDonte King yet. I did not fucking punch her, but she’s accusing me and she filed a report with the campus police. Dude, I have two witnesses. She’s retarded if she thinks she can lie about something like that.

I’m slowly getting over all of this.

Despite what others say, I’m not a failure. I have nothing to prove to anyone. My life goes on.

I’m feeling rather detached at the moment so I have no problem typing this stuff up. It’s 1:30am and I have not done my math homework, but I think I’m going to do it after Japanese tomorrow as I’m hanging out in Program Board. It’s due by noon, and I only have one class tomorrow so I’ll hw during office hours. Hah. Hm, there’s also a quiz for Japanese tomorrow that I haven’t studied for yet. And my third math midterm is on Friday.

Today I cycled from hypomanic to apathetic. What will I be tomorrow, I wonder? Each day brings its own surprises. Awesome-ness. /sarcasm

My goal is to write a small one paragraph blog entry in Japanese by the end of Winter quarter. I shall seeeee. I love goals. They give me something to live for and something to strive towards.

Lalalala♥

And I don’t wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don’t want to talk about it
And I don’t want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don’t want to talk about it
Because I’m in love with you

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