New Topic

The reason I started the last entry was not what the entry turned to be about. I’ll get back to it.

Zekee just came in here and he hugged me. I think he thought I was crying… wow, awkward. I so wasn’t. Wtf. I feel extremely weak and vulnerable right now. Ugh, I would never ever cry in front of anyone. Ever. Alright the one time I did it was to my aunt, and even then I felt so … retarded. I was like… rubbing my eyes and they got watery when Zekee came in. jfalsdfsfaklahfd…

Great, now I don’t feel like writing anymore. I’m definitely not going to rewrite EVERYTHING that I wrote in the other entry. Just way too much.

But, just to keep track: Monday-Wednesday = hypomanic; Thursday – Sunday = depressed.

Alright… so the topic of choice for this lost entry:

I read blogs sometimes and I don’t understand how people can just bare their soul for random strangers to read. I view revealing emotions as a weakness and I just feel extremely embarrassed when I show a part of myself to anyone.

Text message I just received (after all those fucking twitters from David):
Rona: I am just going to go tomorrow since I made an appointment already 🙂 my dick is scary ! Lol

Hahahaha…. reference to something I talked about in the lost entry. We hate this person named Mike Dix. Lmaaooooooo. He talked for two hours straight last night. I wanted to shoot myself. I had to text message Rona to help me get him out of my room. Lmao, it was an intense night. Rona asked why he cut his hair and we got 4 years of his life story.

Wow, I’m so all over the place. Gheeeeeey.

Surprisingly I feel like watching anime. Why? Probably because it’s dead week and I need to be studying hardcore status. I mean, on the Japanese quiz today I forgot the kanji for i (in ikimasu) and I totally didn’t see the ni after ima, so I just put the translation as ima instead of kyou. Gah. Whatever.

I don’t know what mood I’m in right now. This cold weather is killing me. Slowly freeeeezing to death.

So, I’m not suicidal, but … I would prefer to be dead than alive.


One thought on “New Topic

  1. By baring myself enough, and being hit enough emotionally, I’ve found myself quite stronger in terms of my emotions. I still have relapses and moments of mania, but overall, I’m less prone to being over emotional. This has helped me a lot when dealing with other people.

    Weakness can turn to strength.2nkwv4

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