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January 10, 2008 ( 10:21 pm!)

Lost Causes

I’ve been feeling this strange high lately. I don’t know if it’s hypomania, over-productivity, or just a normal-ish good feeling. I accomplish a lot in one day, but by night time when I get back to my dorm the homework awaits and I’m just so exhausted, it’s hard to concentrate. I’m already very sleepy, but I can’t sleep. I have to finish cleaning my room. I started at like 4, but I had to stop at 5:30 to leave to go to the second Program Board meeting of the week. We’ve begun planning for Extravaganza ‘08! (: Oh-so-exciting!! Oh, yes, anyway (I’m rambling)… I have to study for my Japanese quiz tomorrow. At least my class is at noon, meaning I can leave like at 11:25-ish tomorrow morning. Idk, I rearranged most of the furniture in this room yet again… it looks longer now somehow. I moved stuff around for tomorrow, and I’m not sure if I’ll keep it like this, or move it back to the way it was.

Hello alone.

I’m seriously semi-happy for once! (: Taking care of yourself does wonders. More energy to do things (during the day), an elevated mood, and etc. I’m just wondering if it’s real… I mean, it could be hypomania, and that’s what I’m extremely afraid of right now.

Dreams we talked about. (My 101 goals in 1001 days are going extremely well)

    



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