DayFebruary 3, 2008

Ai Dao

I ruined my friendship with Erica with my apparent apathy. She’s totally mad at me, and I have to see her every day.

I killed perfectly normal conversations by acting all over-dramatic and stupid (depressed) [I gotta realize no one gives a shit so stop showing that I’m depressed!!!!!].

I’m not going to celebrate my birthday again this year (thx Program Board, how I love thee).

How can I have one week of normal behavior (aside from getting hella annoyed) and then suddenly get so depressed?!

I see Linds signing on and off… and I remember when we would talk all the time, and share everything with each other. Everything. Why can’t I do that anymore? (Wait, oh yeah, no one gives a fuck)

“Somewhere weakness is our strength and I’ll die searching for it…”

Apathy or Sleepiness?

I was definitely OK before taking a “nap”… but I got texts right away so that killed some of my sleepiness. Now I feel tired, bleh, and my headache is still here. I don’t think I’ve been eating well, either. I just get really nauseous and that’s how I know I have to eat. Walk it off.

Finished working on ASPB stuff for a while… thank goodness. That’s off my shoulders for now. Sweet-ness.

Uhm, weird mini 5-second nightmare that woke me up. ): Dun wanna talk about it. Scared me really badly. And that’s why I woke up. Argh.

Busy week. I already saw everything I have to do. Hm, yeah… and then midterm on Tuesday. I’m so screwed. Whateverrrrr…