How To Make It Better?

Alright, so once again I’m depressed. Big surprise.

I just want to be alone. Tell everyone I don’t give a fuck about them and push absolutely everyone away. I’m extremely paranoid and it’s like everyone hates me. Ugh. The sad part is I realize how retarded these thoughts are, but I can’t help but to still think them and believe them.

Every day I hate myself more and more. What can I do to stop it? ): And I think back to the past… and I liked myself just that much more back then. *sigh*

Destination unknown.

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3 Comments

  1. you should probably stop listening to emo music. 😛 Just kidding. Seriously…I wish I could help more, but I always know why I’m depressed and it’s completely related to trauma. I don’t know what to tell people who are depressed for a different reasons, but I hope you figure it out because it’s a sucky feeling and does horrible things to your body. <3

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  2. Adela … do you really know where all this depression comes from? Maybe you should go out more. Or get new hobbies! I remember before around the end of middle school, you would always have something to do: whether going out with family, friends, or with coding, and photoshop! You were always so happy. The point is… you always had something to do–something you enjoyed.

    I’m curious as to what has changed that happy girl.

    Like i said, maybe you need a hobby to enlighten you. You know, if you’d like to hang out sometime — let me know. I mean it! I want us to hang out. Go to the movies or a show for that matter. Let me know!

    Everybody doesn’t hate you, Adela.
    Do you still take those happy pills? Be really careful … they may be dangerous for you psychologically.

  3. Hey,
    I would give you advice, but I feel the same way about the world and myself. So if there’s anything I could say, it is that you should know you’re not the only one in the world feeling the way you do. As far as I’m concerned, fuck the world and fuck everyone on it. It’s not all that bad to have that outlook, it will make you tougher, just don’t keep it forever. I’m sure you and I will get better, but for now everyone can go fuck themselves.

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