MonthSeptember 2008

I Miss You More Than I Did Yesterday

Except I don’t.

What did I give up in exchange for happiness?

Whenever I go through a happy period I give up the ability to think as introspectively, but is that really so great?

My new way of life: Just live. Be happy. And all is good.

But at every turn I’m looking out for signs of hypomania. I don’t see any. My sleeping schedule is great, no weird excessive energy, for the most part thinking clearly and Bri-like, and yeah. *shrugs* I wish I could say this is the end of bi-polar and as though it were a minor cold, it’s no longer affecting me – the sickness is gone. Let’s wait until winter quarter to find out shall we?

I’m so much happier without you

An Unexpected Mini-Vacation

Let me start off by first saying, before I forget, that I do not like the Quantum of Solace 007 theme song, at all. Maybe it’ll grow on me or it will match the movie but for now nonono.

Alright so Friday night we went to Yamashiro up in the mountains near the Magic Castle hotel to celebrate my twin aunts’ birthday! Their birthday isn’t until Thursday but I was planning on leaving back to Santa Barbara on Saturday so I asked nicely if we could celebrate early. (: I love that restaurant! The first and only other time I went there was for my birthday in 2007. The food is amazing, the restaurant so pretty and the view from up in the mountains is great. I think all of us thoroughly enjoyed our food ‘cus everyone practically cleaned their plates of food! Hah.

Anyway, yeah… I woke up really late on Saturday, like around 11 when my Aunt Elvia got back from work and she was like, “Oh… so I thought you were going to leave today but you’re still in bed.” Haha… so she made me breakfast and said she made plans to go visit Joel in Mexico and I was free to come with her. Go back to school, or down to Mexico for the weekend? The choice was obvious…

Joel has a 52ft Beneteau in Ensenada at The Marina Coral. That’s a sail boat, btw. He custom ordered it from France and I think those cost almost a million dollars… o_o I had never seen his boat and I definitely wanted to go sailing. (;

So Elvia, Meme, and I left Saturday afternoon around 4pm and go to Ensenada a bit before 8pm. We stayed at Hotel Coral and the Marina is just behind the hotel. The hotel – wow! I mean it’s not quite a five-star but it’s probably the closest thing that part of Mexico has to a luxury hotel. The moment you check in they offer you champagne and are so very friendly! The amenities are many and so fun~ And our room! Wow, lemme tell you I sure was surprised that the room was something up to par to a hotel room in Las Vegas. (: For the price the room was huge and it felt like an apartment. Loved it~ We’ll definitely be going back!

We had dinner with Joel that evening and just basically relaxed for a while after talking it up real friendly style. (: The next morning we woke up, had breakfast and then went on the docks to get on Joel’s boat!

So like I said he has a Beneteau, and lol… he named her Transformer. (: Such a pretty boat!! Preparing for a sailing trip sure takes a while. You can to remove all the covers, do all this stuff with the ropes, and etc. Though, Joel’s boat has three bedrooms, two guest and the last is a master, but all three have their own restrooms. The wood finish on the place still smells like new and it’s so great. I reallyyyy want my own boat now. Though it is real hard to do everything… meep.

We made a few good tacks and at one point we were going 8 knots SOG (speed over ground) with wind speed of 10 knots. We were almost going the speed of the wind. (: It was a great day! I helped out a little bit, too. Sailing really was such a relaxing experience! I never did want to leave the boat but we had to leave eventually.

We got back and came to mi madre’s house, where we all slept over and watched movies. ^_^ It was fun! The weekend was great, really.

And lol… apparently now I am not leaving until tomorrow… hehehe. I’ve just been having too much fun here at home that even though I love my apartment I don’t want to go back! 0:

Self Deception

At what point do we stop being ourselves?

I haven’t really felt depressed all summer. I am concerned.

Spending time with friends is great.

Celebrating twin aunts’ birthday today even though it’s on Thursday of next week, reason being I’m leaving back to SB tomorrow morning.

Didn’t get into a single argument with any family relatives during my stay! Woah, woah. Forreal. (:

Why is my memory so bad? Mom kept telling me about all the things we used to do when I was younger and I couldn’t recall doing them, at all.

My schedule for Fall quarter for now:


  • Japanese 4
  • Philosophy of Mind
    • Discussion of some central questions about the mind: are people identical to their bodies? What is it to feel, believe, or desire something? What distinguishes intelligent thinking from a computer’s activities? What is the connection between language and thought?
  • Health Psychology
    • Introduction to concepts, theory, and research within the subdiscipline of health psychology. Relationships among behavioral factors, well being, and disease.
  • Jogging
  • Statistics for Psych majors

18.5 units. *cringes* Tbh, I’m probably going to drop Health Psych just because … I don’t know. Wait, why am I setting myself up for faaailure? ): I can do it. I can do it. *nods nods* Friday is freaking fucking awful. Ugh. But whatever, the other days I won’t start until 11. (: Yaay.