Let’s Have a Heart to Heart

With the coming of the colder season my happiness evanesces into the air. Already I can feel the slow trickling of depression creeping into my being. The feeling is not pleasant.

What’s my rule? Don’t break routine.

Breaking routine leads to a multitude of negative repercussions. It all started when I took that first sip of coca-cola. Okay, wait a minute. That’s a little melodramatic. So first I went home and then I got comfortable and didn’t want to come back to school so I stayed two days longer than I should have. This literally shattered my life as I knew it (or it will for a while anyway). Suddenly there was an option I hadn’t considered this quarter yet: I can miss class, and it’s no big deal. Wrong. This week I’ve only attended select classes (and if I felt like going even). Then I decided three months and 21 days of no soda was a long time so I went ahead and had some. Another break in structure, however minuscule it may seem. Small changes like this allows within me lesser expectations. If there are lesser intrinsic expectations my motivation will falter, and my motivation is always somewhat lacking.

Routine is not to say that I don’t do spontaneous things; I do. It’s more my way of keeping myself on track. There are certain responsibilities I need to adhere to and if for one day I don’t, I’m allowing a leniency my “self” can’t handle.

So what are my responsibilities?

  • Attend class. (I’m attending Japanese, jogging, and Phil of Mind. Stats and Health Psych, as predicted, I’m not in the mood for)
  • Study. (Only doing for Phil of Mind, religiously)
  • Complete homework. (Japanese CHECK. Phil of Mind CHECK. Stats CHECK. Health Psych (hw = reading) NOT DOING.)

So I’m only partially slacking off but it’s enough to make me feel off-balance, like I’m not doing it right, whatever IT may be. And looking at it I’m not even juggling an astounding list of responsibilities either. What’s the deal?

A recent development: I’ve come to terms, and even now enjoy, spending time in the comforts of only myself. There’s something calming about not having to talk, no pressures in keeping up a conversation, the freedom to come and go as I please, etc. I naturally reach out for people but very often schedules conflict and so who’s always there? Me, of course! Yesterday I did some more just-me Bri time and I finished another novel. (Unless I read the Twilight series I don’t think I’ll reach my goal of 12 books this year. So far I’ve only read 6 with two months to go.)

Speaking of two months, it’s funny how quickly time passes isn’t it? Hey life! I don’t appreciate the daily reminders. Quit it already!

Hm, is retreating into myself really what I need right now? Forgive my lacking social skills as of late; winter’s coming. Bri Bear does need to go hide in her den for a while.

(This was sort of choppy wasn’t it? OH WELL~)

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Repo! The Genetic Opera

I haven’t had much time to blog latel, but I do need to stop by this place and say the best fuckin’ movie I’ve seen in a very long time is Repo! The Genetic Opera.

Here’s the trailer:



In the year 2056 – the not so distant future – an epidemic of organ failures devastates the planet. Out of the tragedy, a savior emerges: GeneCo, a biotech company that offers organ transplants, for a price. Those who miss their payments are scheduled for repossession and hunted by villainous Repo Men. In a world where surgery addicts are hooked on painkilling drugs and murder is sanctioned by law, a sheltered young girl searches for the cure to her own rare disease as well as information about her family’s mysterious history. After being sucked into the haunting world of GeneCo, she is unable to turn back, as all of her questions will be answered at the wildly anticipated spectacular event: The Genetic Opera.

My favorite song is Zydrate Anatomy, or at least it was in the beginning. Now most of the songs are my favorite. Since I purchased the album in iTunes I’ve listened to it about ~60 times… it the matter of like ~4 days. ^_^; That’s pretty much nonstop.

Director Darren Bousman (Saw II, Saw III, Saw IV), and screenwriters Darren Smith, and Terrance Zdunich came to UCSB last week on Wednesday to pre-screen the movie. They did a really fun Q&A afterward. (:


The movie will only play in 8 theaters nation-wide when it opens November 7th, but if it’s anywhere near you, go!!! It’s also on a road tour at the moment. Bestest thing uh EVER. I promise~

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Travel Hymn

Last night was a rather interesting experience. Let’s leave it at that.

I had a NIGHTMARE from which I awoke panic-stricken … I was getting married in my dream. I don’t know who ze lovely man was but I just know I didn’t want to get married and he and I had some sort of conversation in which we agreed to go through with it anyway. *cries a little on the inside* At least my dress was gorgeous~?

I’m going back home today. This has been an AWFUL lazy week. Well I mean, not really… but I suddenly like BAM lost interest in Japanese 4. *shrugs* I don’t think I’ll be taking any more Japanese classes. Personally I don’t enjoy attending a single class every single day especially when it does not count towards my majors at all… and I’m past the language requirement.

Btw, Repo! The Genetic Opera is the besssstttest thing ever. The soundtrack is as addicting as Zydrate. ^^;

Hey, I was super social yesterday. (: And! I taught someone how to ride a bike~ yeeeah.

Argh asdfasdf time to go to Japanese class.

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Back from LV

Just sort of mini-updating… I am back from Las Vegas, but still in Downey… so not yet back in SB. I had a toooon o’ fun this weekend. (: Not sure I’m ready to tackle the pile of homework waiting for me when I get back to school. Blah.

There isn’t much to say… except that I am most definitely tired!

(As a side note: Wrote an extremely awesome post on my iPhone with the WordPress app but I accidentally saved it as a local draft and my local drafts folder shows empty… stupid app bugs *sigh*)

Ooooh… I completed my 150 Movies in 2008 sometime this weekend!!! (: Yaaaay~ Movie I’d recommend everyone from this year thus far: THE FALL.

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