Feb
26

Cinnamon

Note to self: Make blog post for Elizabeth regarding morality and beliefs.

Lolol… so the title comes from one of Rona’s slip-ups. Since she makes fun of me all the time when I say something not to her liking (video, wolf, etc.) I decided to laugh about it. She makes me happy~~ :D

I’m currently supposed to write a rough-draft of an original argument. The problem is that the essay’s topic is on ME. Ugh. I cannot write three pages on one of my personal traits, and demonstrate why that characterizes me. Three pages is too much. Blah. So to make it interesting, since we need two outside sources, I’m thinking of describing how  I’m happy using Aristotle’s definition of happiness. Lol… if I can make it about philosophy I will! Otherwise ugh… this is not an assignment I’m looking forward to writing. Tyler provided us with an article so we could use that and pick between being like Athenians or Visigoths… and so far I’ve always opted for the choice of picking some outside article to write my essays. Not this time though. I prefer writing analyses or critiques not original arguments.

This thing is due at midnight… alkfjlsfjlsjdf. What the hell. =\ At least I currently have a 99% in the class, though. *shrugs* Writing in stream-of-consciousness for about 10 minutes sometimes helps to get the writing process kick-started. I don’t really believe that, but I haven’t really been blogging so there ya go.

To keep myself happy I’ve been singing along to the Repo! soundtrack. Hahaha… but it’s sort of distracting, too.

Oh yeahhh… this is just a rough draft! I need to remember that. Though I do always write the entirety of my essay the first go-round so that for the final I just edit. Writing 2 sucks! I hate that UCSB doesn’t let you test out of it.

This weekend ought to be pretty fun, though, with me turning 20 and all that! :D Okkk, back to writing ze essay~!!

Feb
19

Leave this behind

So I’ve noticed that absolutely everything that could have gone wrong this week somehow has. I have a headache now, and weird streaks on my face from crying. My body feels ridiculously tired and I just want to go back to sleep. Definitely I wish this week didn’t exist. My mood has been super stable and everything has been going so well… until this week. It’s funny how after one week of what I would have to call really bad luck is enough to put me down. *shrugs* I’ll continue on with my don’t think about it approach to life. Whatever. Over it, been over it.

Feb
17

Leaf in the Wind

There isn’t much for me to say as of late. Life is continuing quite normally and beautifully. It’s funny, not having anything to say when things are going well. But I’m not, for any reason, going to convince myself that I need depression to write. My thoughts are so much clearer, I’m acting completely responsible and mature and life is great.

There is no need to dwell on what I am missing in life (if anything) and no need to convince myself that I have to write deeply and profoundly all the time. Since words aren’t necessarily coming to mind at this moment in my life, pictures must suffice. Looking back I hope I appreciate these captured memories and forgive my lack of effort in explaining where I am at this moment. The quality is not so great because all of these were taken with my iPhone.

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No makeup. But still feeling pretty. I had to capture it.

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Standing in front of our fireplace. I’m little and it’s really big. I thought it was funny. ^_^;

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Eating healthy! And I’m a total fruit. Cranberry juice. Strawberries. Banana nut muffin sans the nuts (they weren’t to my liking).

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Getting a little creative… (and a little romantic?? hahah)! Bowl filled with marbles with a candle in the center. (:

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Bowl I made at Color Me Mine!! :D It’s lavender on the outside with purples flowers and super bright and cheery orange on the inside. I love this bowl!!

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Diamond necklace Aunt Elvia gave me recently. It’s blurry because it’s hard to take pictures of diamonds… but there are 43 of them. I lovelovelove it.

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Book my Uncle George gave me… hahahah. And another HDMI cable for me~

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Heart-shaped chocolate cake my Aunt Mary made me for Valentine’s Day!!! :D It was yummy and super pretty because 2 year old Midori decorated it~

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Heart-shaped ring that my aunt used to tie the bag the cake was in. :D Super cute right! Yep, my Aunt is the cutest thing~~!!

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It’s been a long rainy day so hair waved up a little but I straightened my hair for the first time in almost a year!

I emailed the pic to my family (we email each other pics all the time looool <3 ) and my Aunt Meme said I look like this hispanic actress:

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Yeah… I’ll take it!!! She’s beautiful!!!! :D Hahaha

And this has been a segment of my life since I’ve not blogged in a while.

Feb
02

DNW!

Except for a few minutes just a bit ago I’ve been pretty happy. Geez, I really know how to get myself depressed don’t I? DNW to talk about it! DNW depression!!!! GAHHHHHHH. I’m trying to get over it. It’s not a “over it, been over it” moment. I wish it were. *emo tears*

And then I think about my family and how chill and amazing they are everything feels alright again. I do not need drama or stupid shit in my life… especially not super problematic PEOPLE. Ugh! DNW!!!!!

Life needs to be problem-free. SIMPLE. Breathe. Breathe.

I just need to forget about it and remember that my life is FUN, simple, beautiful, problem-free, and I don’t need this. Reclaim my life. *breathing deeply*

Uhm, yep. This is my blog entry. Nonsensical, vague… lololol.

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