MonthMarch 2009

A Quick Evaluation of Self

“Don’t you miss me?”
“What’s there to miss?”

“Can we go to Griffith Park like the good ol’ days? Just ‘cus I’m 20 doesn’t mean I can’t be like in the good ol’ days.”
“No, you can come over. But you can’t ask for things. But you can come visit.”

I’m wondering where I went horribly wrong. She called me to ask me how I’m doing with money and if I would like for her to transfer some money to my account. But then I told her I’m not going home because no one ever comes to visit me (since the reason she called was asking why I hadn’t been over in a while). Even my aunt, she called me yesterday to see how I was doing. And she said she misses me, so I told her that if she does she could come visit me. She said no.

This is going to be a year-long grudge. I’ll call them all on their birthdays (except Elvia) to wish them happy birthdays, but I’m not going over to celebrate with them. They didn’t come here to celebrate with me. And George didn’t call me until 7pm. So… whatever. He’ll get a very late phone call from me on his birthday. Year-long grudge. And my grudges usually don’t even last a day.

Her rude remarks followed by my swift goodbyes and then she tells me she loves me, repeatedly. At this moment in time, I don’t love you. You’re such a bitch! Ugh. I’m typing… and I’m getting over it as we speak.

There are two separate topics in this entry, I just realized.

I’m not going home for spring break. I have plenty to do here. So much reading, writing, etccccc. It’s all good. Ugh. I’m okay with her just giving me some money here and there. That’s an okay relationship. It works.

Ugh, geez… I hope there are some YouTube videos to watch to help me lighten up my mood. (: And after all I am going on my super amazing shopping spree come Friday!!! So it is super okay. ^_^

Edit: You know, I was at a park today and I thought of my mom. It made me want to spend time with her. It made me miss my family. I can only take so much negativity. I seriously don’t know where I went wrong.

Things I Want To Do After This Essay is Done

So I have an 8 page paper due tomorrow at 11. But really I have to be done by 8 because that’s the time I have to get ready, eat breakfast, and I also think I’m describing all this to procrastinate on writing said essay.

  • Finish that ridiculously stupid third book in the Twilight series. It’s written so poorly I’ve put it off for over a month… two months, maybe? Possibly more… It’s so awful there is no fuhreaking way I’m reading the fourth book unless there’s a major cliffhanger. But let’s get real… everyone knows what happens in the fourth book.
  • Read Wuthering Heights. I’ve been dying to read this since I got it a quick minute ago.
  • Read Eros!! I was totally wanting this book since they featured it in an episode of The L Word. And it’s philosophical, too. Total love.
  • Get back into Aelyria… it’s been like 4 months. How the heck does time fly??
  • Post on Adylheim for that cute little kid named Steven.
  • Catch up on box-office hits I haven’t been able to go out and watch.
  • Wash the motherfucking dishes. Seriously, it’s becoming an issue. Hahahahahahaha.
  • Watch The L Word.
  • Make fun colored lipglosses with pigments and v.

Oh, fuck. I accidentally recorded 10,000 B.C. in Spanish. FUUUUUCK… well I guess that just means that while it plays in the background I’ll be more focused on my essay… OR trying harder to pay attention to the movie to hear what they’re saying. What the hell are “casadores”? 🙁 Ahhhh… OKAY ESSAY TIME!!!!

Getting Some Blog On

I’ve tried starting entries lately and then I run out of time and have to leave or something… not sure. Anyway, I’m forcing myself to sit down and have a real talk with myself. Hahaha.

My birthday was FUNFUNFUN! Rona and I spent the day together in Solvang increasing our chances for diabetes, and then went out to dinner with all my college-y friends. (: [Hm, made me think how I’m not talking to my high-school peeps as much anymore!!! :/ ] Anyway, I’m 20… it’s awesome… yadda yadda. I hate updating on stuff that passed a while back. Playing catch-up isn’t my favorite game to play.

Monday, I got ridiculously sick. Ugh. I’m still sick for that matter. Grrr… it sucks! There were a few days I thought death was upon me forreal yo. It was like I turned 80 not 20. Hahaha.

Since I’ve been stuck in the apartment throwing tissue paper left and right, Rona and I decided to make a skit and record it. Well, it was very improv and it’s way stupid… but we quickly edited it and we’re going to put it on facebook. -_-; Just thinking about it is really embarrassing. We purposedly edited really dumb to make it more funny… Oh geez.

Anyway, and today I pretended to be Jewish. Hahaha… we went to Sabbat at the nearby Synagogue. We went to the Conservative service just because it was straight from the book and I wouldn’t need to sing anything (like in the Reform service). Hahaha… surprisingly translated Hebrew is really easy to pronounce so it was fun! And there was a dinner afterward~~ which uhm… was amazing! The challah and matza balls were great, and Rona knew I would like them. Though by the end I was way too full. And aghhh…. I love fried tofu so much… it’s almost awkward.

Ok! Mandatory blog over. Back to playing videogames w/ Rony. (Aww… it’s going to be so sad not being roommates next year… but it’s okay, I’ll have fun with Sandy… hahahaha)