MonthMay 2010


Nordstrom; already purchased, but with gold detailing instead of silver.

MAC; already purchased, heard this sold out in 2-3 hours everywhere.

Nordies. I need LACE in my life.

Topshop; these are sold out EVERYWHERE and is no longer within my ability to own… for which I am very very very sad.

Aldo; so pretty… except I already know that all Aldo shoes are extremely uncomfortable… the two pairs of Aldo shoes I have hurt and I love/hate them. Sigh.

Remember Now

This video made by Karl Lagerfeld aired at the Chanel Resort 2010 fashion show. It’s my current obsession; everyone in the video looks absolutely stunning!



A Deep Breath of Ocean Water

Bob: What do you do?
Charlotte: I’m not sure yet, actually. I just graduated last spring.
Bob: What did you study?
Charlotte: Philosophy.
Bob: Yeah, there’s a good buck in that racket.
Charlotte: Well, so far it’s pro bono.

Oh you know, I’m graduating with a philosophy degree end of this calendar year and I don’t know what I’m going to do. Leave it to a great movie to express my fears with such simplicity. Law school, I’m looking at you. Totally never in my plan, not even a passion of mine… it’s what most Philosophy majors do and hence seems the LOGICAL thing to do… harharhar. Yeah, logic. That’s philosophy alright.

Can someone give me a hobby? I’m at my wit’s end. I can’t figure out what to do with my life, with myself, with anything. It’s 10pm, and I watched a movie today, ate one meal, went to both my classes, cleaned my room, ran some errands so that I could organize my room, and slept. Maybe that’s a well-rounded day for some people but I’m bored to tears.

It’s not even about being alone anymore. No one shares similar interests with me and that’s fine – it doesn’t matter anymore. I just wish I had more interests, period. Maybe then I’d be able to occupy my time with something more meaningful.

I did the Lemon Detox for five days and then went home on Saturday to celebrate Mother’s Day with the family and so I ate. If I hadn’t eaten it would have set a bad example for my brother… anyway, the detox went well. I’m down to do it again. I feel better. It gave me something to do.

Oh  yes, my hair is now a new color. It’s this caramel-y color. It took a second to get used to. It’s easier to look glowy and sunkissed with this hair. Perfect for summer. I need to think up more errands so I can fill my time with something, anything.

Worse than feeling lonely is feeling lonely and knowing no one that feels the same.

Cut, Squeeze, Pour.

Lemon Detox Diet.

I don’t want to commit to a strict length of time for this detox, but I’m thinking somewhere between 5 and 7 days. I don’t think 10 days ventures into healthy territory for me. I’m only 21… don’t think I need that much of a cleanse… (:

Day 1 (Monday) – Really hard. I was craving everything under the sun. Healthy Breakfast + 4 cups.

Day 2 – Still pretty hard. No longer craving as many things, but some mild stomach discomfort set in. 8 cups.

Day 3 – Woke up with a lot of energy and earlier than usual. One of the reasons for getting on this detox is because I was still feeling tired after sleeping 10 hours, and just sluggish all day. The day went pretty well. Accompanied friends to go get pho (…! and I resisted), though there was some mild boredom and it felt easier to just go out and eat. Late at night I was starting to feel hunger pangs so I drank a few more sips of lemonade and went to bed at around midnight. 6 cups.

Day 4 – Woke up reluctantly to write an essay, but again full of energy. Not so many cravings anymore but any food seems sufficient to fulfill the hunger void. Though I shouldn’t be hungry… I should keep making more lemonade, but I have only a short break between classes today so it has to wait.