A Deep Breath of Ocean Water

Bob: What do you do?
Charlotte: I’m not sure yet, actually. I just graduated last spring.
Bob: What did you study?
Charlotte: Philosophy.
Bob: Yeah, there’s a good buck in that racket.
Charlotte: Well, so far it’s pro bono.

Oh you know, I’m graduating with a philosophy degree end of this calendar year and I don’t know what I’m going to do. Leave it to a great movie to express my fears with such simplicity. Law school, I’m looking at you. Totally never in my plan, not even a passion of mine… it’s what most Philosophy majors do and hence seems the LOGICAL thing to do… harharhar. Yeah, logic. That’s philosophy alright.

Can someone give me a hobby? I’m at my wit’s end. I can’t figure out what to do with my life, with myself, with anything. It’s 10pm, and I watched a movie today, ate one meal, went to both my classes, cleaned my room, ran some errands so that I could organize my room, and slept. Maybe that’s a well-rounded day for some people but I’m bored to tears.

It’s not even about being alone anymore. No one shares similar interests with me and that’s fine – it doesn’t matter anymore. I just wish I had more interests, period. Maybe then I’d be able to occupy my time with something more meaningful.

I did the Lemon Detox for five days and then went home on Saturday to celebrate Mother’s Day with the family and so I ate. If I hadn’t eaten it would have set a bad example for my brother… anyway, the detox went well. I’m down to do it again. I feel better. It gave me something to do.

Oh  yes, my hair is now a new color. It’s this caramel-y color. It took a second to get used to. It’s easier to look glowy and sunkissed with this hair. Perfect for summer. I need to think up more errands so I can fill my time with something, anything.

Worse than feeling lonely is feeling lonely and knowing no one that feels the same.

One thought on “A Deep Breath of Ocean Water

  1. I love you!!!

    sorry that i haven’t been able to hang out with you more.

    i think you should join a book club!!!


    can’t wait for tomorrow

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