I keep meaning to read more but I find it so difficult to concentrate these days. At any given time I must be doing a minimum of at least 2 things so that I don’t feel restless or bored. But not bored exactly. I don’t quite know how to put it but it’s as though I am not occupying enough of my time unless I do more than one thing. Maybe it’s because of all the multi-tasking I’m forced to do at work. Sigh. Work. That’s one thing I am definitely third of complaining about. If only I would just do something about it already.
Wgile I have been spending time with friends I am perfectly content just coming home to my apartment. I’ve been pretty tired lately and dealing with some weird bodily reaction. Red itchy hands, knuckles, knees, etc. I have an appt with the rheumatologist on Tuesday. Rheumatoid arthritis matches my symptoms though they don’t mention itchiness… And that’s one of my major symptoms. Ugh I’m worried but at the same time just want to figure out what the heck is wrong with my body right now and get it taken care of already.
This year I feel strictly committed to not letting work take up so much of my time. This is a job I have 0 invested in, there’s no need to put in more than 100% of my energy like this last year
Anyway… Sigh sigh sigh. I’m going to sleep (instead of trying to read). I work tomorrow.
I kind of wish I knew how to express my current state of mind… Malcontent?