“A sentient being’s optimal chance at maximizing their utility is a long and prosperous life. You misunderstand. It is true I chose not to feel anything upon realizing that my own life was ending. As Admiral Pike was dying, I joined with his consciousness and experienced what he felt at the moment of his passing. Anger, confusion, loneliness, fear. I have experienced those feelings before, multiplied exponentially on the day my planet was destroyed. Such a feeling is something I choose never to experience again. Nyota, you mistake my choice not to feel as a reflection of my not caring. Well, I assure you, the truth is precisely the opposite.”

I watched Star Trek: Into Darkness last night… finally. I neeeever knew Spock was Utilitarian. I am, too, of the John Stuart Mill variety. And OF COURSE I completely understand the idea about choosing not to feel but yet still being fully capable of sympathizing. Feeling is something quite inescapable of course but honestly, I live my life so much better without feeling (as much as possible). I try to escape feeling whenever it’s available to me. It doesn’t mean I am uncaring, I am just… better off without.

It was certainly an entertaining film. A little bit on the longer side, mostly unnecessarily but I still enjoyed it.

Now UTILITY is something I need to ponder on because it’s certainly been a while since I have given serious thought to my mode of living. Philosophy is my one true favorite “topic of discussion” or thought process.

I’ve joined a book club, created ever-so-surreptitiously by Sebby… and naturally he chose the first book. We are going to read Were You Born on the Wrong Continent?: How the European Model Can Help You Get a Life first. It’s a political book that focuses on the German model of politics. It’s no secret – I fell in love with Berlin when I visited and I so desperately want to move to Europe at some point in my life… but to read about it seems rather dull. The book arrives tomorrow and I have a month to get through a very thick 300+ pages. Yikes! Commitment is something I do very well so now that there is accountability I will have to force myself to get through this. I suspect I will have to force down some 3pm coffee at a cafe more than once a week to manage.

Thanksgiving is just days away!!! I’m very excited for a day off. Six days a week is really a lot… and the days are so quickly slipping past me. I am grateful for a moment to slow down and take it easy. This has been a crazy fucking year. Fo’ sho.

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