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Movie day. Serious. I watched Encino Man, Jet Li’s Fearless, Snakes On A Plane, and Pulp Fiction. Mom isn’t home yet. She went out with her co-workers. I want dinner, even though I’m not hungry. Characters kept talking about pancakes (or eating them). >.<; I wonder if Mom will agree to go out to eat this late… there is no school tomorrow and she doesn’t work on Mondays. :]

The movie ended at 11:59pm exactly (Pulp Fiction). So yeahhh. A little lag on this post. It’s backdated a few minutes. So shoot me, I’m cheating.

“I can’t blame anyone but you,” says the lyrics in the WordPress admin control panel.

Movie day. Serious. I watched Encino Man, Jet Li&#8217;s Fearless, Snakes On A Plane, and Pulp Fiction. Mom isn&#8217;t home yet. She went out with her co-workers. I want dinner,...

I stayed up until 2am this morning. I had three English assignments to do. Brian Han and I stayed up working on the English stuff. Procrastination = bad, but I do it every time. lols.

I’m waiting for 12:35am so I can watch 3DG on TV. (:

Today I had my annual optometry appointment. My vision is 99% the same, thank goodness. My eyesight was getting worse every year, until this one~! Yey for that. I got back home and my mom had to go to Auntie Elle’s house, so I stayed home with my brother and I quickly fell asleep. And yet, I’m still sleepy now. lols. But wait, I must. :]

My cell has been acting up. I got an IM from Haku that my cell sounded busy. I looked at my cell and it was fine… except apparently not receiving any calls. I keep getting this static-y picture and then it turns off. I ♥ my cell, so I feel emo.

Ah, I had a ♥ to ♥ with Lindsey today before my eye appt. But, I know inside, it didn’t help too much… we’re still both very emo girls. We can relate so well, but because of that together we’re almost disastrously distraught. *hugs my lovely Linds*

I’m seriously so tired of pretending. I talk to him just about every day, and he can’t get out of the “happy bubble” notion. It kills me. I say something like, “I’m so depressed” without any good response. Yesterday, I asked three people for help and none of them realized it. Oh well, right?

Whichever you prefer.

I stayed up until 2am this morning. I had three English assignments to do. Brian Han and I stayed up working on the English stuff. Procrastination = bad, but I...

I feel as though I could quote bits and pieces of every song on the One X album by Three Day Grace. The album very much makes me rather teary-eyed. I think I’ll just quote this one:

If you want to get out alive
Run for your life
If you want to get out alive
Hold on for

If I stay, it won’t be long
Till I’m burning on the inside
If I go I can only hope
That I make it to the other side
If I stay, it won’t be long
Till I’m burning on the inside
If I go, if I go

Burning on the inside
Burning on the inside
Burning on the inside

The concert last night was magnificent. High energy. Emotional. Wonderful. The songs describe me so so so well. Except most of them are about surviving and at this moment in time I feel as though I won’t. Even Bayside’s lyrics are a lot more positive. I’m trying, really.

Wake me up. I’m living a nightmare. I will not die. I will survive.

I feel as though I could quote bits and pieces of every song on the One X album by Three Day Grace. The album very much makes me rather teary-eyed....

But not really. I wiiiish I was happy or at least content for infiiinity.

Anyway, I just received this email:

Hello, this is Ticketmaster Customer Service with an important notice regarding your purchase for Dir En Grey at the Wiltern on Friday, February 23, 2007 at 7:15pm. Please be advised that portions of Dir En Grey’s performance may be offensive to younger or sensitive guests. Parental discretion is advised.

Haha, from Dir en Grey, this is very much expected. I’m so excited. Like you have no idea. Of course, I won’t be able to sing along to the lyrics because I don’t know any songs from their new upcoming album and only a few lyrics from Withering To Death. Psh, it’s just going to be really entertaining to watch!! Yeahhh.

Tonight, Three Days Grace. I heard some people from school went to yesterday’s show. ^_^ Of course I’m cooler, I’m going today. Lols. I’m a little giddy and headache-y and hungry. I should go take care of it by eating some lunch.

But before I do that, I must mention that in art class we have to draw a really big letter with a pretty border and images around it. So anyway, I looked to my left and not next to me, but the seat after, there was this guy… and at the bottom of his letter was the BAYSIDE BIRD. He’s the very first person at my high-school I’ve encountered that even knows who Bayside is, let alone loves the band. Seriously!! It was miraculous. He’s going to be my new friend soon. Pwuahaha. :>

Obscure.

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But not really. I wiiiish I was happy or at least content for infiiinity. Anyway, I just received this email: Hello, this is Ticketmaster Customer Service with an important notice...

Tomorrow I’m going to a Three Days Grace (w/ Flyleaf) concert. I=excited. I also have some reading to catch up on.

I’m feeling bleh. I’ll feel more “blogative” eventually. I joined another challenge. You can find it in the content section of the sidebar. I feel like I need these challenges just to motivate myself to do something. *sigh*

The life I think about
Is so much better than this
I never thought I’d be stuck in this mess
I’m sick of wondering
Is it life or death?

I need a boost of caffeine. Pwuahaha soda :> Okkk, reading time. Reading rainbow. I loved that show. I’ve said that before on a long-ago blog entry. I need to write one of those really meaningful entries sometime soon. I think if I reread Sister Carrie, I’d sooo be inspired. For now I need to finish Thousand Acres and read Act II of King Lear.

You’re wrong if you think I’ll be just like you. (I wish I could say your name.)

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Tomorrow I&#8217;m going to a Three Days Grace (w/ Flyleaf) concert. I=excited. I also have some reading to catch up on. I&#8217;m feeling bleh. I&#8217;ll feel more &#8220;blogative&#8221; eventually. I...