Apathy Resurfaces

“I’m not crazy ’cause I take the right pills everyday.”

What do you do when you’re bored? What do you do when you’re depressed? What do you do when you’re unhappy?

Here’s what I do:

1. Listen to one of two playlists:
A. My Soul Is Dying
01. Cold – Stupid Girl
02. Blindside – Pitiful
03. Smile Empty Soul – Bottom of a Bottle
04. Jimmy Eat World – Bleed American
05. A.F.I. – The Leaving Song Pt. 2
06. Jimmy Eat World – Hear You Me
07. Something Corporate – I Want to Save You
08. Papa Roach – Last Resort
09. Crossfade – Cold
10. Jimmy Eat World – Sweetness
11. Sum 41 – We’re All to Blame
12. Sum 41 – Still Waiting
13. Papa Roach – Scars
14. Linkin Park – A Place For My Head
15. No Doubt – Don’t Speak
16. Jimmy Eat World – Pain
17. Blindside – Eye Of The Storm
18. The Ataris – In This Diary
19. Sugarcult – Pretty Girl (The Way)
20. Hawthorne Heights – Ohio Is For Lovers
21. Sum 41 – Pieces
22. The Living End – Prisoner of Society
23. Relient K – Forward Motion
B. .hack//SIGN OSTs
2. Stare at my computer monitor and either a) think (with music on) or b) go through old layouts.
3. Sleep. This is Ryan’s way of coping with problems and I find it to be really effective. Time goes much quicker in this way. But then, when I wake up it all comes back. I’m glad it’s summer because this has been messing with my sleeping schedule. On Saturday, the 9th of July, I slept for 5 hours in the day and then 8 hours at night. On Sunday, I just felt like falling back to sleep at any moment. It’s getting to the point where I can sleep anytime even if I’m not tired or sleepy. Then, last night or rather, this morning (14th), I slept from 5.40-7.40am. You’d think two hours wouldn’t be enough, but here I am — not even sleepy. But I want to go to bed right now and get my day over with. The days seem longer when you want them to finish.
4. Read. This is the least helpful, oddly enough. I start reading, but the entire time I’m thinking. So then I have to reread what I “read.” Sometimes I manage to get greatly interested and time passes quickly and I read lots. But eventually my thoughts sneak back in.

If you haven’t read the README (click on the yellow warning sign on the sidebar), you should know that I’m not stating why I’m unhappy for a reason. Don’t ask. I hate talking about myself . . . well, if I don’t mention it: I don’t want to talk about it. It’d probably be considered stupid or even immature.

Sarah’s Friend: lol.. i feel sorry for you tho… ppl go to you for their problems… but you don’t get your say in any of yours… *coughs* sarah mentioned it when i mentioned you yesterday… *secretly hopes that nothing bad will happen to him for revealing that he possesses such knowledge*

Me: yeah everyone does come to me. I’ve just accepted the fact and moved on. Maybe I like keeping my problems to myself. Why would anyone care about my shit? Simple as that.

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Test Plug Hack

 Test Plug Hack

Oy … I woke up this morning and I got IMed from Milane to fix the Greymatter plug hak of someone I don’t know. LOL!~ Guess what I did? Of course, I fixed it. ._.;; I’m too nice, non? xD~ It was a productive morning where I guess I just felt like working because I also installed Dodo’s plug hack for b2. It’s really helpful! xD It’s so simple to set up, too. xDThen, I spent some time at vBB. I need that post count to go higher. That way, people will read my posts and recognize meeeh. I have about 60 posts in like a day and a half. Mwuahaha!~ Yes, I’m good, because I don’t spam either. ^_~ I just reply to like .. everything. :O! You won’t get me to shut up, no you won’t. Er .. I’ll probably go and post some now more before bedtime, non? ^_~ –> teh PERV wink. LOLOL

I DLed the the client for MobRO. xD The rates there like loooow, but I think that gives me more drive t actually level up and spend quality time playing. But I have, by no means given up on the lovely RiceRO. It’s still my #1 place to play RO. <3

Oh yeah .. I was part of one of the vBB chats today! It’s always hard to keep track of what’s going on. xD That’s mainly because I don’t know everyone’s name by memory. ^^;; That’s why I need to talk mooore on vBB and join in on more of the MSN chats.

Er yeah … I’m downloading all the eps of Lavender the Taiwanese drama that I saw two years ago and fell in love with. ^_^; I also have many eps of Full Moon wo Sagashite to wach, and Ragnarok Animation eps 1-5, oh and more eps of Live Action BSSM. -___-; I’ll be busy, eh?

Ja mata!!

Plugs: Albz, Marlana, milane, phattygurlxxx1@hotmail.com

Brigitte flew to Tokyo at 10:47 am

12 birds

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Yesterday~

Yesterday~

Oy, yesterday was a long day! I wasn’t much allowed on the compie because two of my aunties came over to relax. Of course they all say when they’re there and I’m on the comp that “they came to see me and not my back.” x.x;; So yeah, I was pretty much bored the whole day.Well, I saw 50 First Dates a second time. ;-; Such a nice movie, but so sad … yet happy I guess. I enjoyed watch`n it again, anyway. xD

On Thursday [I forgot to mention this earlier] I also saw Hidalgo! Despite the fact that I don’t like Viggo Mortensen, I enjoyed the movie very much. =] I am such a sucker for horses. It makes me miss my horses back in Guatemala. I want to visit over there. ^^;

Lately, I’ve been spending so much of my time on mIRC. I’m always at #pgsm on server irc.zirc.org. xD The people there are really nice and friendly/helpful. Now, whenever newbies come in and ask questions, I try my best to help them.

Oh, I DLed Winamp again, after not having it for a while. I realized that I missed it and loved it all along. <3 Winamp!~ Yeah, well I went hunting for tons of anime skins and then more music. ^^;; LOL Then, I found about Japan Radio and have been listening to that for a while. It’s awesome!~ They even have a mIRC channel to request for songs. =]

Well, last night, I slept over my auntie’s house because her twin sister went to Las Vegas for a wedding this weekend, and she would’ve been all alone. Eek … and I know how scary that gets. SO I came with her. ^^; While she was asleep, from 10:00 PM to 12:26 AM I read non-stop and finished The Chronicles of Narnia, Prince Caspian [vol. 4].

Which reminds me, I have today to finish book 5 and then maybe tomorrow, book 6, then day after that, finally book 7. *phew* Then, I have to read the new book my auntie El bought me. It’s in the LA Times list at #4.

Oh, and on a final note, on December 25, 2005, the second book in The Chronicles of Narnia, “The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe” will come out in theatres everywhere. I simply cannot wait, even though it’s more than a year away. LOL.

Mkay, I better start doin` other things … like commenting on blogs and such. Ja ne~

OH! Please visit either my LJ or my xanga, and comment on the story that I posted on them. I want feeeeedback. Arigatou gozaimasu! *bows*

Edit: Lookie at the cutest lil` thing evar … my first quiz thing on TEH LOG. xD I got this from Joya, who got it from someone else. ^_^ LOL

Brigitte flew to Tokyo at 07:02 am
5 birds

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Guys . . . o_o!

Guys . . . o_o!


Eek … today was a busy day. I played riceRO for a while!~ That was fun. I guess there was a server wipe because my character was gone. Uwaa~ That sucked, but my char will be lvl`ed up again, soon. =]

After that I watched eps 14-16 of Full Moon wo Sagashite. Aww Takuto is so adorable. I want to make a fanlisting!~ xD I’ll do that as soon as I finish my shrine to Frey, which I already started work`n on, I swear Kris! xD After that, I watched half of ep 1 to the Taiwanese drama, Lavender. The torrent file was at 99% so it wasn’t working properly. >_< The torrent has been down due to the torrent site that I went to being down. *sigh* I have eps 26-31 of Live Action Sailor Moon! to watch, but haven’t gotten around to it, yet. So many things to do and no time! o_o;

Anyway, later on at night … like around at 8 – 10 PM, my mom, my brother, and my cousin went to the pool. I didn’t feel like going in today. ^^; My mom accidently left her cellphone upstairs and well, it rang. I took her her phone down and omg! When I walked by the pool this guy said, “Hello” to me. I ignored him of course! Then I wanted to go get the mail before going back upstairs … but I had to walk by the pool again. >>; The guy said, in Spanish, “Estas enojada? [sp]” which means, “Are you mad?” Maaaan, that totally creeped me out. I wanted to run away and scream. xD LOL.

As I went to the mailboxes, there were 4 guys sort of standing there talking to each other or whatever. I had seen them earlier, too. Well, I had to walk by them to get to the mailboxes. I was dreading that after the pool incident. Err, as I walked towards the mailboxes they walked in the opposite direction, and every single one of them said, “Hello” to me. Damn teenage guys. I ignored them and then one of them said, “Okay bye.” >.< I know when a "Hello" is friendly and when it's flirty. These were not friendly hello's. After that, I was think`n, "Okay, wtf?!?! Five guys said hi to me already. O__O" I ran back upstairs and started freak`n out. Lmao .. that was like a new experience. I blame it on the short shorts I was wearing. *dies* Yeah, okay, anyone know why they did this? o_o; That was freak-ay. Oy, I dunno what to think about that anymore! Tomorrow, or rather, today … I have swimm`n lessons. >>; I already know how to swim, but my mom wants me to take the classes anyway so that my brother won’t be alone in the class. Pssh. Waste of my time, really. LOL.

I can’t wait for my Japanese school, though!! xDD Now that is excit`n!!~ Well, I better sleep some, ne? Oyasumi nasai!~

Brigitte flew to Tokyo at 12:59 am

8 birds

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