Jan
10

Lost Causes

I’ve been feeling this strange high lately. I don’t know if it’s hypomania, over-productivity, or just a normal-ish good feeling. I accomplish a lot in one day, but by night time when I get back to my dorm the homework awaits and I’m just so exhausted, it’s hard to concentrate. I’m already very sleepy, but I can’t sleep. I have to finish cleaning my room. I started at like 4, but I had to stop at 5:30 to leave to go to the second Program Board meeting of the week. We’ve begun planning for Extravaganza ’08! (: Oh-so-exciting!! Oh, yes, anyway (I’m rambling)… I have to study for my Japanese quiz tomorrow. At least my class is at noon, meaning I can leave like at 11:25-ish tomorrow morning. Idk, I rearranged most of the furniture in this room yet again… it looks longer now somehow. I moved stuff around for tomorrow, and I’m not sure if I’ll keep it like this, or move it back to the way it was.

Hello alone.

I’m seriously semi-happy for once! (: Taking care of yourself does wonders. More energy to do things (during the day), an elevated mood, and etc. I’m just wondering if it’s real… I mean, it could be hypomania, and that’s what I’m extremely afraid of right now.

Dreams we talked about. (My 101 goals in 1001 days are going extremely well)

Jan
08

The week just begun, really?

The days in which I’m busiest are the hardest to write about. I have to leave again in 15 minutes and I won’t be back until 10pm. I’ve been in my room today a total of 45 minutes (not counting the morning wake up & etc.). I had two classes today, two! And still… my time goes somewhere, doing something. I just don’t know.

At 5pm I have a Community Affairs Board meeting, and I’m just hoping to death it ends soon. Then at 7:30 Sandy, Rona, and I are going to go watch Across The Universe. I’ve already seen it, but it’s part of AS Program Board, and I signed up to go, so whatevz.

I had a student health appointment today. And I have two tomorrow. I gots me another set of pills today. LMAO… I now take 7 pills a day. Well, two Omega-3, and one Centrum. The other pills are daily. Then there are two other medications I can take if I’m too… uppity… or can’t sleep. My life of pill-taking is interesting

Shit, I have to leave in 10 minutes.

I haven’t taken any photos today. It’s stressing me out. In these last minutes I’m going to look for the chargers to my digi-cam and my dslr. UGH, eventually, sometime soon, when I get time, I will put the photos up on the 365 blog. *STRESSSSSED*

Okokok… I gotz 2 go!

Reminder: Prep info for 11am tomorrow. I learned something medical-related today…

Jan
07

Winter Quarter

Today was the first day back to UCSB. It was intensely busy and I barely got back to my dorm at 9pm. Mondays will always be incredibly busy for me because of Associated Students Program Board. I will be posting my schedule for the year as well as all the activities I have to do, just so I can remember how busy I always am.

I had an appointment today at Student Health. Two tomorrow, one on Thursday, and another one next Monday. Going to Student Health is almost like part of my routine these days. Not all the reasons I go are for psychological reasons, though, I swear. However, I’m pretty damn sure I’m going to have to take yet another set of pills on the daily. I’ll find out tomorrow, most likely. Oh wells.

I really really really have to get to my homework for the night. The work load has already begun. *sighs*

More later, I promise.

Oct
28

Are You Telling Me That You Will Listen?

Here’s a picture of my lip piercing (and yeah, slightly swollen, atm, but irl you can’t really tell) (click it to see larger):

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I went home AGAIN this weekend. I slept over at Auntie Meme’s place on Friday night. She watched episodes of shows she recorded while I chatted with Elizabeth, first on the phone, and then online. I recall chatting with some other people, but I just don’t know who I was talking to anymore. My memories fade really fast, sadly. I went to bed at midnight, which is kinda early. Anyway, I got two calls after I slept, one at 1:20 and the other at 1:40… but I was already asleep. I don’t remember this at all, but my aunt said she handed me my cell and I replied, “No, I’m too sleepy.” You can talk to me when I sleep if you say my name, but I won’t remember a single thing in the morning! It’s sort of scary because I might say something without meaning to… eek. AH! I just remembered something from overa year ago… sadness.

Saturday, I attended baby Alex’s 2 year birthday party. Afterward I was pretty exhausted so I took a two-hour nap. Then I met up with Alba at her house. We went to Universal Citywalk and ate dinner at Tu Tu Tango. There was live music and dancing outside, but we felt too shy to dance out there. Instead we watched Rendition. (: Ooh, and I got a new jacket from Hard Rock Cafe. It’s black with pretty pink-ish skulls on the back. Lolol, it’s so me. As the night ended I went back to her house and slept over.

Today she dropped me off at Universal Citywalk and there I met up with Rona. We watched Saw IV♥. I got a delicious pretzel afterward while Rona got a churro. We stopped by The Sock Market (or whatevz it’s called) where I was really tempted to buy lots of cute socks, but I didn’t because they were all mostly size 9-11… and that fits sizes 5.5 to 10. Uhm, well I wear size 3-5… so you can see my dilemma. =\ Entering Hot Topic was fun because all the employees were wearing costumes. (: Rona got Coffeebean afterward. Uh… after some time of walking around her mother came to pick us up and we left to the train station in Van Nuys.

I’m back in my dorm. I met Sharon’s sister, Melissa. She seems really nice. (: I had dinner today with Rona, Tibi, Daniel, Nikita (he’s Russian), and Tyler. It was the bestest most fun meal ever. Having guy friends is infinitely more fun than having girl friends. And, Rona and I now have a secret with each other. Hahah… if you read this on my xanga, shh! (;

Some things are undeniable… and I so badly want to admit something to myself, but I won’t allow it.
The end(:

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