c o l l a p s e  with me under a blood-red sea              [0011; heart - strutter . o r g]

July 28, 2008 ( 8:28 pm!)

There is no greater sorrow than to be mindful of the happy time in misery.

It’s called taking a half-hour nap, so don’t question my disheveled look. Why do I always feel I am to blame? And I’m currently blushing at the thought of someone potentially staring at me. Potentially. Maybe I’m just a wishful thinker with nothing better to do. The “potentially” makes me feel uncomfortable walking into class.

Oh, hey. Valerie called me today. We haven’t exchanged words in about a year because she’s in the army. It keeps her occupied.

Note to self: readership. How can I reduce comment anxiety? *emo face*

Dramarama. My class and I watched the first half hour of Water Boys, the movie, today. Over the course of the next two days we’ll be watching the rest of it. Two more days of class. Then oral interview. Then final. Kanji is my biggest issue, but I’m confident I’ll pull through OK.

There’s a sense of panic rising within me. I’m scared. And there’s nothing I can do. Walk the road most traveled with me. Walk the straight and narrow path with me. Forget it, let’s tread the waters. (I wonder if anyone realizes the brilliance of this paragraph lmao… Oh, allegory.)

Confessions of a justified sinner? Crime and punishment.

Quale è il mio peccato?

    



July 22, 2008 ( 10:49 pm!)

二人とおよういでいます。

Week two. I’m not as stressed, but it is crunch time. Just this week and next left and then I’m done with Session E. I have to say I’m doing quite well in , getting excellent marks and such. (: It certainly is intense, but the good thing is it’s hard to forget the material when you’re quizzed every single day (forreal). Keep up with the pace.

I have another quiz in Ital 114X tomorrow and I’m a bit nervous… but I’ll definitely be studying from 12 to 4 before class. Though I can proudly say tomorrow that I have read Inferno by Dante. And then move on to Purgatorio. Yeeahh. (:

Mm, showed another movie at IV Theater today. ‘Twas good. Wish Publicity would do more advertising, though. And heyyy I get paid to go watch a movie every week - who doesn’t love that? (: $25 for 2.5 hours. Boooomb. Hahaha. I love AS Program Board.

There are two quizzes tomorrow for me. Probably I should be doing homework or studying at the very least. My mind is definitely elsewhere at the moment. Mainly been doing a lot of writing in my spare time. Yey for that. Staying off ze i-nets has been different, if anything.

I could not help but notice a serious lack of depression lately. This makes me incredibly happy, but a lil’ weary, too… that this is the calm before the storm. *shrugs* Let’s just hope I’m on the happier side of the spectrum for some time to come. Er… though I’m noticing I’m just a bit more apathetic that I’d like, and a little bit more cruel (it’s not that noticeable to others as I keep it under wraps), but still. That’s just the way my brain balances me out then I guess.

Today Ryan S. was discussing blindness, color blindness, etc. before the movie began and we had an interesting debate… but it need not be retold. Needless to say my interest is piqued and I think I’ll be learning something of color theory in color blind people in Philosophy of Mind fall quarter. (;

There is much to do!! *runs off to multi-task*

    



July 21, 2008 ( 11:30 pm!)

Fall Awareness

I am soooo fucked. I just found out I have to read The Odyssey, The Iliad, Amphitryon, and The Aeneid, all for Classic Lit 30A in the fall. And wow yeah these are haaardcore classics. So hardcore I don’t want to read them anymore. Haha… I’ve alwayssss strayed from these precise books (never heard of the play ’till now) and now I get to read them… Oh such pain!

Anyyyway, Inferno is a delightful read so far. I have to admit I always read it when I’m dead tired, at night, though… and when I have class the next day it’s like er… ohhh so that’s what that means. >_>; Lol. We’re going at lightning speed but I think now that the first week is over I’m a lot less stressed and simply taking it day by day.

I had my midterm today. Yeeeeah. (; It felt like a piece of cake. And the oral interview from Friday - I got a 20/20. Easy breezy. I just have to keep studying kanji because I KNOW that’s the area in which I’m struggling the most. Worry not! for I have the cutest flashcards ever. Hahah… oh wow.

Trip to Vegas was so fuhreaking fun. (: The last few times the has gone this year I’ve been unable to due to school, but whatevah… I just had to go this time. ^_^; I got back this morning at 8:30 and my midterm started at 9am. Oh so risky. >_x

Mmkies, sleep soon. And yesterday’s entry = pictures but it’s not published yet.

The multi-tasker’s demiseeee.