Minutes to Class!

So I have to leave in about 15 minutes to get to my last class of the day, but so far my favorite: Philosophy of Mind. The professor is sort of old, he doesn’t make too much sense, but the material is great! I loooove how non-scientifical philosophy is because well I pretty much don’t understand science… of any kind. Not a good thing for a psych major to admit, but whatevz. At the same time I have to say I’m definitely more interested in the humanitarian aspects of psychology, not the scientific. Oh hey maybe I should go to Spain and study abroad there because that’s the perspective they take. UCSB is definitely a research-driven university.

There has not been much time for me to blog as of late for which I have to apologize (to myself). In dire times of need I confess to my moleskine and no one else, and when I do have the urge to write on here I realize how silly and minute what I want to say is. One time I almost posted a short survey with a few questions but the amount of time to write it was not worth the insignificant information on it.

Lately I’ve been a little moody and easily angered. Or… maybe all the litle things have accumulated over time and I’m finally just getting pissed off (at some people).

It’s not the large things that send a man to the madhouse. . . no, it’s the continuing series of small tragedies that send a man to the madhouse. Not the death of his love but a shoelace that snaps with no time left…

Six minutes before I have to leave and I should gather my bpack and shiznitz. Oh man I love my jogging class even if I am tanning very strangely. And I love bikeriding. Next: conquer swimming laps. That uses too many damn muscles. Hah. And I don’t know how those were related to my backpack… but anyway.

Nightly Builds (and Tips to Happiness)

I just got back from running at the track with David. I jogged 8 laps, whereas yesterday I only jogged 6. And tonight I’m not as sweaty, and not anywhere near as tired. At the end of 6 laps, when David jogged in right behind me with 10 laps under his belt neither of us were that tired and I proposed going for one more. His response? “How about two?” This exchange took less than 20 seconds and as I nodded I took off jogging. This time, David just stayed at my pace for the entire two laps.

Running/jogging with an iPod distracts me so I chose not to have it with me. So here are my thoughts as I’m running.

First lap: Oh this one’s so easy. Wow, I’m back and done with the first lap already?
Second lap: This one seems to take longer.
Third lap: The first three laps are so easy. The second three not so much…
Fourth lap: You’re almost there. Come on. Pull through.
Fifth lap: The idea suddenly comes into your head that you really want to walk. But you can’t!
Sixth lap: Omg, I want to walk. No. No. Keep going. Omg, this is the end. RUN. RUN. Sprint it. THE END.

Right now I’m sitting up so straight my back is hurting. My tummy is too full with water. Towards the end you’re just trying to breath. You’re breathing so hard that taking a sip of water deprives you of oxygen. You can’t do the two at the same time.

The last two, 7 and 8, David tried talking to me. Ugh! That’s bad.  By the end I was just nodding and kept going. Even he doesn’t like talking, but since we were going at the same pace we were talking about the other late night runner that joined us.

He was this muscular guy. Not too muscular, but definitely his arms were defined. He wore a red shirt, just like David, but his was cut so his stomach was exposed. I thought that was funny, but felt somewhat odd wearing my orange shirt. The odd girl out. And yet it was so dark I don’t think it really mattered. He passed me up three times. Always at the same spot. The first time he passed me up, I was thinking, “Omg this is awkward.” And I just automatically slowed down a little so he could pass me up. And boy, he does not know how to breathe.

Getting on my bike right after running felt like climbing a mountain. But I even put my bike on a higher gear and bike-riding back, even uphill was not as hard a struggle as it usually is for me. Fuhreaking sweetness. You’ve no idea how stoked I am for my jogging class come Fall quarter! Sandy and I will be taking it together. (:

Ngl, I was damn sore this morning and I can only expect the horrible pain that will come when I awaken tomorrow. Not really looking forward to it. Well I am, because it means success and healthiness and lalala, but it doesn’t feel pretty. Haha.

Other thoughts as I was running (I was making a list in my head):

Secrets To Make Myself Happy and Advice I’d Give to Get Someone Happy Again

  1. Make a schedule and exercise! Physical exercise comes with its benefits!
    • It improves your mood.
    • Combats chronic diseases and can prevent diabetes.
    • Helps you manage your weight (or heeey~ muscle tone).
    • Strengthens your heart and lungs.
    • Promotes better sleep!
    • Gives you something new and interesting to do!
  2. Spend more time with the friends that matter.
    • Don’t talk to people that bring you down!
    • Laugh~ and be merry. Only good friends can do that!
    • Take every opportunity to hang out and go out. Staying inside all your lonesome is not good (and there’s no exercise in sitting on the couch either).
  3. Pick up a new hobby! For me, this quickly became bike-riding. Sure it was all by myself but it’s quite adventurous and doesn’t really feel like exercise until the end when you’re sweating. (Ah, but don’t forget those old hobbies you used to love but haven’t done in a while. Start ‘em up again!)
  4. Read!
    • Yeah, that age old hobby people used to do before television and computers became so mainstream. ): It’s really very entertaining and you get to tell your friends you just finished another book. What could be better?
  5. Listen to fun music! And listen to old music. Those great songs from the 90s (er… or 80s if you’re older) really do bring back the good times. Or try listening to new music! Tbh, I’ve been listening to the Jonas Brothers a lot and looove ‘em. (:
  6. Accept yourself. Accept every inch of your body. For most people insecurities come from the physical rather than the mental. Forget it, this is your body so whatever it’s like – love it. It’s not perfect! but who cares?
    • It’s taken me 19 years of life and one whole year of college to realize that zomg~ this is me. And I love it! Anything that needs improvement can be worked on. A little exercise here and there, a little more reading to increase ze brain power, etc.
  7. Think happy! Happiness probably won’t come knocking on your door so put on the happy mentality, pick up your keys and set out to find it.

I know these tips sound extremely cheesy and totally cookiecutter happy girl lalala, but these are coming from a bi-polar (type II) young adult that’s battled through a ton of depression, self-loathing, awful friends, and so much more. Happiness can be real. Forreeeaaal. (Now, I just need to re-read this during my times of need/depression!)

(: Life’s good.

P.S. Who hates all those darn WordPress upgrades? I upgrade and then bam! another upgrade is available again soon after. Gaaah.

Don’t Move and Don’t Make a Sound

VMAs yesterday did not make me lol. Russell Brand’s humour was just not to my liking. I mean, he was ~scandalous~ sure, and what he was saying could have potentially been funny, but the delivery man! Seriously, like I just never heard laughter coming from the audience either. Though, fuck Miley Cyrus for saying she didn’t even crack a smile and Jordin Sparks for getting wildly offended about the purity ring bashing. Dude, he was joking. She didn’t need to take it so damn seriously. The whole Disney crowd needs to back away from the VMAs if they’re all going to get offended.

Pink’s performance was damn fucking fierce! And Xtina has not lost her magic touch at all. The remix of Genie in a Bottle was great (uh except she lipsynched wtf) and she’s great. I hated Rihanna’s performance though, but that’s because I hate her music. All the instrumental backings to all her songs are fucking like stolen and shit… nothing sounds original. So idk, I just didn’t approve. And aww my lovely Britbrit was damn nervous, but still fierce! Everyone gave her a standing ovation when she walked on the stage to open up the VMAs. And she won three awards! Yeyey.

Alright, enough of that. Just had to get my lil’ 2 cents on here real quick.

I went running on the track yesterday night!! AHHH. Last night David and I were going to go bike riding, but then we just kinda wondered if the track was open and yah it’s totes always open. David ran so many fucking laps… it’s unbelievable. I did 6. Which is a mile and a half. And damn I am sore today~ but not that badly because I’ve been using my leg muscles and stuffs like that for a while now bike-riding. (:

My thigh muscles are swollen, I can tell, because when I touch them they’re rock solid. haha. I love it~ ngl. Ah, but now that I’m getting my legs in shape my upper body is feeling weeeakk. I need to start exercising that again. (: Ahaha… I love how David, Sandy, and I are getting really fit! It’s so fun! Lol, this is what UCSB does to us. And we wondered, when we got here, why everyone was so freaking fit.

We’re not to the point where we can run in just a sports bra or anything like that (like the other girls here), but even if we were – I dun think Sandy or I would do that. Lmao. One step at a time. xD

My mother’s birthday is on Thursday. I have no clue what to get her. Gah! I gotta think of somethin’ ASAP status~

On a really sad note, a UCSB student jumped off a bridge here in Santa Barbara this morning. *sigh* I’ll refrain from saying anything on the matter.

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