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Light the Incense

Usually there’s something worth moping about. My classic black Oxford booties are gorgeous, make me taller, and provide a chic menswear-inspired feminine touch to my life. They make me feel like an adult. And that’s what I’ve wanted all my life. My apartment exudes the most wonderful energy. My legs are buttery smooth (as a random side note of goodness). Paramore’s new album, ‘brand new eyes’ makes me want to dance, but so does everything else. I feel like an adult. This is dramatic and HUGE. I finally feel at home.

There are no better words to describe what I mean.

Let’s enjoy life.

Winter Wonderland

No winter has ever been better! There have been no family fights and for the most part everything is going well. That means that I’ve also just been enjoying life without much time to get online or even blog! It’s hard to blog when just everything is going so well! My mood is pretty stable and it’s a consistent happy. (:

NOTE: There will be a lot of girly banter in this post. Do not proceed unless you like fashion/girly stuff. Skip to the second half, if you don’t like that sort of stuff.

On Saturday I dyed my hair again! I let my natural hair color grow out for about three months and finally I decided I needed some color in my hair again. It’s a really pretty light golden brown that reminds me of milk chocolate with perhaps some red undertones.

Between yesterday and today I spent over $300 on makeup. Now, I know that sounds crazy… but brushes are ridiculously expensive. I got the MAC 109 brush, which was $34! It’s a contouring brush, but I’m using it to apply my Mac Studio Fix Fluid foundation for now until I get another bigger fluffier brush. I got a ton of products from Smashbox! I absolutely love their makeup and I cannot wait to try the Smashbox Photo Finish Primer. The primer goes under your foundation. Also, I went to Sephora and purchased Urban Decay Potion Primer, which is used on the eyes as a primer to eyeshadow. I was using a cream-based base from MAC as my primer before and I really liked it but it was also a little too shiny. Today is my first time using the UDPP and so far it’s working great I think. None of my makeup has creased, and the actual product came on really nice and smooth. Oh yes… and I also bought the Coastal Scents 88 Matte Palette. The palette comes with 88 different color eyeshadows! And it’s only $21! That’s such a deal! The Coastal Scents and Smashbox products I ordered so I just have to wait for them to come in the mail. (: Smashbox has a TON of free gifts if you order online so it’s really such a good deal, and their shipping is totally free!

As I put my makeup on today I realized I have about 3 or 4 MAC eyeshadows I’ve never used in my possession. I’ll work on wearing them more often, or at least trying out the colors. But I couldn’t today because my clothes is sorta bright today.

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Saturday we had our grand ol’ Christmas party at the new house. We had about 60 guests in attendance I think. I invited Sandy, Gloria, Anna, Piale, David, Eric, Tim, Elizabeth, Gabriel, Jean, Pedro, and Vy. All of us were dancing all night long!! My high heels were thankfully surprisingly very comfortable. David and Piale definitely got drunk lol… it was quite amusing. Either way we ALL got down and just danced nonstop. Ahhhh it was so much more fun with my friends there. Otherwise I would have been the only one in my age range and that always sucks.

There was amazing catering from Panama Joe’s and a great bartender. I get so excited when we get their catering for all our parties because I am madly in love with the chimichanga appetizers. And the chicken and scalloped potatoes are just divine~ Seriously! Then we ordered fruit tarts and creme brulee from Tropicana Bakery & Cuban Cafe. Some people were kind enough to bring pies, too! And there was also a lot of chocolate. Brb, dying!! AHH, just remembering all the good food is kind of exciting. Lol… hahaha that is just too funny.

Anyway, we had a raffle, too. Every adult guest received one ticket to start off with, and then the more you danced the more tickets you got. We gave away some gift cards, a basket of some hardcore alcohol, an iPod Nano, Nikon Coolpix S60 (the touch screen digital camera), a Sony Blu-ray player, and last but not least a 40″ HDTV! I’m so happy because David won the Nikon digi-cam! We had some really amazing gifts for the give-away and I think everyone was pretty happy even if they didn’t win.

We also had an elf and a Santa Clause. All the children in attendance got presents from Santa Clause. (Ok so actually I picked all the presents for all the kiddies, but it was nice and cute~) Then my family surprised my Aunt El and snuck a present in Santa’s bag for her. It was a beautiful amethyst yellow gold ring.

Oh! also, I’d like to note that my aunt ordered snow to be delivered and placed on our front lawn. Lmao… so for a few days now we’ve had snow covering all our grass on the front lawn. Talk about extreme, and super funnnn! Hahaha

I cannot wait for Christmas in a few days!!! (:

(In sadder news, my little brother is anorexic. And we found out yesterday he’s also been throwing up the little that he did eat. So now he’s going to have a personal cook come over every day starting Friday to make sure that he eats because my mom works 12 hours a day at Kaiser Permanente so she can’t really cook for him or even check that he eats. He’s going to have many doctor appointments now, to ensure he gets back to a healthy weight and isn’t sick anymore. I won’t really elaborate on any personal thoughts.)

A Dream and With More Frequency

A few nights ago I dreamt I was in a relationship with an extremely cute boy. He was the nicest, most caring guy… to the point of annoyance somewhat. Really nice boys are very annoying. The ones that don’t give you any reason to be upset are painfully boring. In any case, that’s a different topic and I’m talking about someone specific. Back to my dream: This dreamed cute boyfriend of mine… I miss him. *sighs* The next night I was hoping of dreaming of him again, but sadly I had a dreamless sleep. This is the very first time I’ve ever dreamt of being in a relationship and it was… nice, pleasant, surprising, etc.

By no means am I feeling needy right now. Sure I have some stances on relationships (but I’ll not go into detail), and yeah it’d be nice to have a boyfriend but I’m sort of whatever on the matter. Actually it’s more of a resignation that it’s not really going to happen anytime soon, but let’s not delve into my cognitive distortions. So yeah as I was saying… I’m not being needy, so the dream really caught me off-guard! I don’t understand why I had it now of all times.

As of late, I’m either hallucinating or guys are being extra charming and flirtatious toward me. I don’t know why… or if it’s legitimate. *giggles* That really cute emo boy, “Hey, nice piercing…” with those really intense eyes that never stopped looking over at me all night. That tall attractive boy that leaned over towards me, “But it was worth it right?” with the cutest smile. Yeah… anyhow! I’m pretty sure I’m not dreaming this shit up right? It’s just awwwwkward!! I get sort of flustered and my cheeks turn red each time… gahhh. -_-; That’s so lame but whatever… hahaha, it adds color to my cheeks. ^_^

No one deserves to be alone for the holidays. *hugs my friends and family tightly* I’m definitely looking forward to the Christmas party we’re throwing on Saturday. Anna, Gloria, Sandy, Vy, Jean, Elizabeth, Gabriel, Rona, and David (and maybe Eric and Tim), are coming!! W000t! College and high-school friends inter-mix and meet! It’ll be hella fun dancing… and hopefully a few of them are able to get presents. As always we’re raffling presents to guests and all the kids.

In fact, I spent ALL of today shopping and running errands with my aunt. We bought some things for the house (more rugs zomgz… they are so freaking heavy), and all the children’s presents. Picking out hella toys from stores made me feel like a little kid again hahaha. Oh fudge and we’re having a wrapping party on Thursday. I am *not* looking forward to that at all!!

Ahhh… the joys of shopping. I have some gift ideas… Must go shopping without any family members around… lol~

Night!!!

Let the Darkness Swallow You Whole

I’m currently sitting in the dark in the living room. It gets dark really early these days. And it sounds like I’m setting the mood for some deep and dark introspective entry, but in reality I’m pretty damn happy! (: That’s totally strange for this time of year, but I’m NOT complaining.

This quarter has felt like a first-quarter-in-college for some reason. That’s not necessarily bad… but all the mental maturity I should have done during my first quarter last year I did this year. But all in baby steps! This quarter I actually studied hardcore for finals and tried my best (somewhat hahaha… I will sometimes procrastinate!). And I think I’m going to get an A in Philosophy of Mind. Based on my grades for the previous 2 assignments (of 3 essays each) all I needed on the final was an 82 to maintain my A. We had to write FOUR essays for the final, which took me two hours and 10 pages. Lmao… shit was intense. I think my brain died a little bit toward the end and my hand was about to fall off.

What really made me super happy was that the TA walked out when I finished my final and was setting it on the table, which at the time was disappointing because I wanted to be all like, “Thanks!! Bye now” sort of thing. But anyway, he stepped out so he could talk to me! He addressed me by name and told me that I was one of the few people to get consistent As in the class and that I did really well. Not gonna lie, I was a little flustered and didn’t know what to say hahaha so I just said, “Well, I love philosophy…” Hahaha… afterward as I was walking away I was totez liek, “damnn that was dumb.” Haha

So last night Instead of studying for Health Psych some more I was too elated and joined Hailey and David to go watch MILK. The movie is about Harvey Milk, the first openly gay man to be elected to public office in California. I just have to say the movie was really empowering not just for the progress a single man was able to garner for the gay movement but just as a motivation to always have ideals to strive for because it IS in your power to grasp them.

Note to self: My theory of replacement is dead-on. NUUUUH. Already I think there is a replacement but I’m a bit more like whatever this time. Hahaha. xD And I’m SO over it. Like forreal. YAY!

I cannot wait until WordPress releases WordPress 2.7. I can’t risk even downloading Release Candiate 1 because all my entries on here are super amazingly important to me. The new layout in the Admin looks so much cleaner and nicer that I can’t wait to write my entries with it!!

Ooh… it’s been a while since I listened to the Repo! The Genetic Opera soundtrack so that’s what I’m doing now. I reallllly want to buy the DVD but it isn’t out until January 20th! And already I bought “In The Mood For Love” and “2046” haha…

OY… speaking of shopping I busted a mission last night. After my Phil of Mind final I didn’t really change into anything warmer when we went out to the movies and I was wearing my thin pink zip-up hoodie. And I was shiiivering so before the movie started we went to American Eagle and I told myself I was looking for a black jacket. Immediately I found two… one with faux fur and a more casual one. xD And… I bought them. -$110 from my account (faux fur jacket was $80 but!!! the second hoodie was 50% off so it was only $20 instead of $40). *dies* Hahaha…. I think in like less than 2 weeks I spent about ~$400 of my own money on clothes. -_-; Hahaha… oops?

I can tell how many days I haven’t used the computer by looking at my RSS feeds. ): There’s a lot to catch up on! BLARGH. asdfkjsadf That’s okayyyy winter break is nearing!!!!!!

Non-sensical happiness!

I love my friends! I love my family! I love myself, too! (: