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Aites, I guess a lot has happened, but I don’t always like writing about what I’ve been up to because it seems such a “normal” and boring topic. And, I would use bulletin points, but that’s just being lazy.

I slept over at Rona’s on Tuesday night. I ate some weird vegetarian foods… and for that reason I’m never eating her food again! Gr-face! Uh… kidding, mostly. It was superfun and etc. [Wow, I'm so not being descriptive] I got back home late-ish on Wednesday afternoon, because Rona slept in until like almost 1… I don’t know, she even went to bed before I did! lmao. People and their sleep. I don’t understand sometimes.

My party shuffle is kinda weird… but I think that’s due largely to the fact that my newly-transferred music has little to no ratings yet. In time. I wish, I wish, I wish. (Listening to Hilary Duff, atm) I wish that I could be like the way I was before. I wish that you could make my world feel better. Oh em gee, I suddenly like this song more than before! I had just never bothered listening to the lyrics.

Recently I have decided to stop saying, “that’s intense” because my little brother made fun of me for talking differently these days. ): It’s true, though. I talk in a strange rhythm now, and I don’t like it. I trust my brother’s better judgment and I appreciate his perspective. If I can’t trust him, who can I trust, ey? I don’t know, but the Santa Barbara crowd love the phrases David and I use… and then they start using it, too. Kinda freaky. Anyway, I’m resolving to speak like a normal human being again (minus the phrases my brother and I use…) :]

There are days I wish I could just isolate myself from the world. It’s way better than hurting the people around me when I’m easily annoyed and feeling particularly angry for no reason. And what’s ironic is that the people I care about the most are the ones that make me angriest. I say I don’t expect anything of anyone, but at the same time, there’s this hope that I’ll be proven wrong.

At around 10:30 this morning I purchased tickets to go see Linkin Park at the Staples Center on March 4th. Okay, well initially I was going to buy the ticket, but then it occurred to me to call my auntie Elle so it could be my birthday present (seeing as it’s so close to my bday and all that), and she transfered money into my account so I could buy them with her money. XD; Pretty coooool, and something I actually like!

Argh, I wanted practical things for Christmas this year, and I have a feeling I’m not going to get them. *emo tears* I wanted a new watch, but Meme isn’t telling me what she got, and I don’t particularly feel like looking through the huge pile of gifts by her tree to look at the size of my gift (to speculate and all that). Anyway, I don’t see any small boxes… emo. Alright, and my Mom asked me to email her a list of things I want for Christmas and I also think she completely disregarded it. My gift is rectangular and hella heavy. Wtf man! I asked for a cover for my macbook or pretty bag for my DSLR and lenses. Uh, yeah… I don’t think it’s either of those. I dunno what George or Elle got me, but I’m pretty sure it’s definitely not something practical. I gave George a CALL and couldn’t stress enough that I wanted something practical (like oh say gift card to places I already spend lots of money at… yannoe?!). Well, we’ll see.

*many hours later*

I just finished editing some photographs to put in frames. Horizon alignment, curves, levels, whitening teeth of people, selective color, unsharpen mask, hue/saturation. Geeeez. That took a while, but it was also fun to see what the photo looked like before and after. :]

Well, well. Should I continue I’ll just ramble on and on. So, the enddd.

Twitter Overload

Alright, I need to Twitter a lot… for reasons which I cannot divulge unless I want my competition to get fierce. Wait, shit, I think I just revealed why I’m twittering a lot. Oh wells.

I just realized that I’ve been blogging a hell of a lot lately. Have I even been saying anything of substance? I have my doubts, but at the moment I don’t feel like re-reading anything. Or do I? I’m totally rambling, and for this reason, I think I will make this entry private or not publish it at all unless I come up with a brilliant topic.

I just finished installing some new WordPress plugins… not like I really need them, but why not? Ugh, I have to make a new layout ASAP. This depression slash no motivation is starting to get way annoying. WAAAAY annoying. I probably need to look around for images to get inspired. Or something like that. It would be easier on my PC. Coding on this macbook thing doesn’t make me feel “at home” with coding. Though, that’s just a bullshit excuse. (:

So, I haven’t eaten in two days (unless you count a cracker I had an hour ago, just because Rona told me to) and I’m not even hungry. Maybe a little headache-y, but that’s eh. And you know when you start counting that it’s on purpose, right? Just thought I’d admit it instead of looking like a retard on my own blog. :]

I am not looking forward to Christmas. I hate myself. I hate my mother. I hate —- and —- right now. With a passion. I hate everything right now. It’d be so easy to just diiiie. Why am I so depressed? I almost can’t deal with it. Though I’ve felt worse. However, I don’t think that’s any reason to excuse the current depression.

Geez, I say I hate my mother and she just called me to say she was doing something thoughtful for me. The irony.

Anyway, I have to help Meme clean her apartment … so the cleaning lady can come clean tomorrow. Isn’t that also ironic? Lmao. Life… life is so funny sometimes. It almost makes me want to cry.

Ooh, side note to self: start tagging entries, and tag old entries (this might take a while as I will have to re-read them).

I hate you so very much.

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