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August 6, 2008 ( 5:25 pm!)

This Time Last Year

As a small side-note this entry was either going to be titled this or “Usually, You Find Yourself In ” and then start off by saying, “but I’m beginning to lose myself.” So there you have it. A little behind the scenes info. (: The entries would be headed in similar directions, actually, but not entirely. One more introspective than the other. hahaha…

Anyway, this time last year…

  • I had 8 comments on the August 6, 2007 entry. My popularity is almost non-existant now. OR, there is definite COMMENT ANXIETY. There’s at ~least 10 of you that read this shit on the daily and leave me random comments on LJ, email, Twitter, IM, etc. What’s the deal? Give the domain some love. ):
  • I started Freshman Start Program and began my life as a student.
  • I was also extremely busy just like now.
  • Quite possibly I was an altogether different person.

Now there’s the thought of getting a little emotional, sharing some inner feelings or whatever… but I’m not going to and I don’t really want to either. One thing I know for certain: I went in the opposite direction of who I wanted to become, but… it’s weird because I accept myself so much more (even though if I were to analyze “who I am” right now I’d hate her).

Oh, and as far as I know I’m not currently depressed nor am I hypomanic. It’s this in-between stage I fear the most… at any given moment my mood can change. It’s in this in-between stage that I am the most lost.

    



August 2, 2008 ( 11:47 pm!)

“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

I’ve only got a few minutes to get a post in. And I’m tired. So… that means . Lala… this is filler text so that the can begin below the metadata. And then I’ll also place a picture at the bottom of this post for prettyness… I went picture-finding crazy today. If only I were that talented… Haha…

  • ASPB Event today at the beach.
  • My cheeks are red… of all days I forget to put my face lotion on (it has SPF somethin’)… And I look more pink-cheeked than normal. *shrugs* It’s cutesy…
  • Sandy and I tanned together! YEYEY.
  • Afterward we put air into the tires of my bike and rode our bikes around.
  • Got Jamba Juice. Chilled. People watched.
  • Went into Sweet Jane’s for the first time. Bought suuuper cute earrings!!
  • Rona left today! Emo… it’s all lonely in here now! (She’s going to Italy for the )
  • Unexpectedly Nefi and her brothers stopped on by a while ago. They’re so funny… lmao. They actually listen to rock music, which was weird… and they had me play some of my music (awkward). xD;
  • I got an A in !! (: Yeeeahhh boi. Now just three more weeks of … more 8-12. I might age another 10 years these next three weeks.
  • Confident I did poorly in Ital 114X. Hahaha… >>;

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I think this image is just stunninggggg. I love it! (: Click iiiit.

Let’s dance together. ends this coming week. ): What ever will I do? What will I watch on TV?! How will I get my fix of dance??? ):

    



July 14, 2008 ( 8:43 pm!)

It’s All Around Us

Soooo… I’m in one of those non-write-y kind of moods. Yep. .

  • Got really angry this morning. Made it a point to discuss it with person I had issue with and it is now resolved. Yey communication skills!
  • I had from 8am to 11 today. And I will have everyday Monday through Friday from 8 to 11. Yeah. That’s a long time. … We will have a quiz everyday except tomorrow we have two quizzes. And we have three homework assignments a night… they each take about an hour…
  • Worked today at the office doing office hours. Then had ASPB Meeting. (yeyeyy aspb and money~)
  • Had class from 5 to 7. Class in which I will be reading Dante’s Divine Comedy.
  • Homework from 7:30 to 9.

… my life is oooover. ^_^; Thank goodness these classes are only three weeks long each. Though… that means that each day we learn a week’s worth of material. No joke. I might die. ): And ugh start ze second job tomorrow. And I work ASPB Movie tomorrow… though that just consists of watching a movie and getting paid to do it. (: Lol.

Mmkies, gotta finish studying for the two quizzes tomorrow. Vocab troubles me so. I have such a hard time remembering all the ru-verbs. U-verbs come so much more naturally to me… isn’t that weird? *shrugs*

Off to see the wizard… the wonderful wizard of oz… I keep singing that thanks to Quinny baby. ): And ugh that awful stuuuupid song American Boy plays randomly in my head, too.

UCSA the last five days was aaaaaamazing! :D

Baibai.