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June 17, 2008 ( 11:30 pm!)

A Handbag of Miscellaneous Objects

Yeah… I’m going to have to write another due to lack of thoughts. *cough* I don’t know, but really just a bunch of really random days stuck in the house without much variety to my day does nothing to help the mind spin. Not saying the days are boring or anything, just … not that exciting. Hopefully there’s more to look forward to soon-ish.

  • Played Oblivion again today. I’m dedicated to re-play the game without thinking about my wonderful long lost character.
  • Vy came over at like noon and just barely left. FUN TIMES w/ Vy! (:
  • I ate a “special sandwich” - some Vietnamese thing with ingredients I’m not familiar with and liked it.
  • The Lakers fuckin’ lost. I’ve never seen them play so badly, but whatever… The Celtics really did deserve to win this.
  • I hooked up my PC today! How I missed my darling lovely.
  • Watched a movie Kyle recommended to me a week-ish ago. ‘Twas awesome.

Inspiring photo of the day:
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Great use of color. Looks like a blue fill layer set to exclusion. Ooh, I want to learn how to make HDR . Soon as I learn to use my DSLR better… that’s what I’ll do. Eventually.

    



June 16, 2008 ( 11:47 pm!)

Please oh please believe in anything but me

I’ve been looking all over the internet using the handy dandy StumbleUpon toolbar for about two hours in search of inspiration for a blog entry, but have found absolutely nothing. I want to be able to feel something, express an emotion, write something personal, and share ANYthing with you but I can’t think of a damn thing.

In particular I was looking to be moved by some sort of photograph, and it’s true that they touch me in some form but no thoughts come to mind. This photo really strikes me as poignant, though:


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And I suppose sharing the photo is a good-enough post for a day in which I have no thoughts.

That photo makes me both sad and happy. There’s something so serene about it, but the black and white strike me as … melancholic; the lack of color sets the mood, I suppose.

Currently I am on the phone with Vy and Elizabeth so I am a bit distracted but still not finding any inspiration. Ugh, this sucks. Basically I can only really get to writing in my moleskine and not so much on here (for the time being).

I’ll come up with something brilliant soon, I promise.

    



December 20, 2007 ( 3:47 pm!)

Transparent

Aites, I guess a lot has happened, but I don’t always like writing about what I’ve been up to because it seems such a “normal” and boring topic. And, I would use bulletin points, but that’s just being lazy.

I slept over at Rona’s on Tuesday night. I ate some weird vegetarian foods… and for that reason I’m never eating her food again! Gr-face! Uh… kidding, mostly. It was superfun and etc. [Wow, I'm so not being descriptive] I got back home late-ish on Wednesday afternoon, because Rona slept in until like almost 1… I don’t know, she even went to bed before I did! lmao. People and their sleep. I don’t understand sometimes.

My party shuffle is kinda weird… but I think that’s due largely to the fact that my newly-transferred music has little to no ratings yet. In time. I wish, I wish, I wish. (Listening to Hilary Duff, atm) I wish that I could be like the way I was before. I wish that you could make my world feel better. Oh em gee, I suddenly like this song more than before! I had just never bothered listening to the lyrics.

Recently I have decided to stop saying, “that’s intense” because my little brother made fun of me for talking differently these days. ): It’s true, though. I talk in a strange rhythm now, and I don’t like it. I trust my brother’s better judgment and I appreciate his perspective. If I can’t trust him, who can I trust, ey? I don’t know, but the Santa Barbara crowd love the phrases David and I use… and then they start using it, too. Kinda freaky. Anyway, I’m resolving to speak like a normal human being again (minus the phrases my brother and I use…) :]

There are days I wish I could just isolate myself from the world. It’s way better than hurting the people around me when I’m easily annoyed and feeling particularly angry for no reason. And what’s ironic is that the people I care about the most are the ones that make me angriest. I say I don’t expect anything of anyone, but at the same time, there’s this hope that I’ll be proven wrong.

At around 10:30 this morning I purchased tickets to go see Linkin Park at the Staples Center on March 4th. Okay, well initially I was going to buy the ticket, but then it occurred to me to call my auntie Elle so it could be my birthday present (seeing as it’s so close to my bday and all that), and she transfered money into my account so I could buy them with her money. XD; Pretty coooool, and something I actually like!

Argh, I wanted practical things for Christmas this year, and I have a feeling I’m not going to get them. *emo tears* I wanted a new watch, but Meme isn’t telling me what she got, and I don’t particularly feel like looking through the huge pile of gifts by her tree to look at the size of my gift (to speculate and all that). Anyway, I don’t see any small boxes… emo. Alright, and my Mom asked me to email her a of things I want for Christmas and I also think she completely disregarded it. My gift is rectangular and hella heavy. Wtf man! I asked for a cover for my macbook or pretty bag for my DSLR and lenses. Uh, yeah… I don’t think it’s either of those. I dunno what George or Elle got me, but I’m pretty sure it’s definitely not something practical. I gave George a CALL and couldn’t stress enough that I wanted something practical (like oh say gift card to places I already spend lots of money at… yannoe?!). Well, we’ll see.

*many hours later*

I just finished editing some photographs to put in frames. Horizon alignment, curves, levels, whitening teeth of people, selective color, unsharpen mask, hue/saturation. Geeeez. That took a while, but it was also fun to see what the photo looked like before and after. :]

Well, well. Should I continue I’ll just ramble on and on. So, the enddd.