A little more depression. Spending time with boardies today helped a little.
Restrictions by Merrit Malloy:
[S]he thinks ‘being strong’
is holding back
and hiding our feelings
when ‘being strong’ has always been
letting go and allowing our feelings
to be
felt
Internal bleeding is
always more
dangerous
…Even joy becomes a burden
when you can’t
laugh
Kayleigh let me read a book of poetry by Merrit Malloy she owns today while we were chillin’ at Anisqo’yo park. It was nice just spending the afternoon with boardies. *yawns* Technically we were “working” - we had an event: Open Mic, but it was mostly just us hanging around while some people sang, read poetry, played instruments, etc.
Mm, I have “work” again at 9… Security for the Magic Lantern movie. I did it yesterday night as well and after everyone was inside I got to watch the movie. Lulz. Such a chill job. ASPB rox my sox. (:
My mom came by earlier to drop off some stuff for me. Ugh, she basically came for an hour, transferred as much negative energy as possible and left. UGHHHH. That woman kills me. All she does is complain and talk shit about as many people as possible. Seriously. WTF.
@violetmae just twittered about some site Now Do This. Talk about super simple and cute!! I love it~
I constantly like to reason things emotionally. Badddd. It’s been a while since I last wrote in my moleskine. That’s what I should do when I get back from work at midnight. Hmhmhm.
Lately I just barely even have time to eat… and yeah my jeans were a little bit looser but I didn’t really pay much attention… but then a few days ago I put on a pair of jeans that are a size smaller and uh they fit. Yey? Haha… not exactly planned weight loss but whatever. I dun care. xD;
It’s been getting harder and harder to keep talking with Elizabeth. I call her during the little free time I have or in the minutes between when I’m walking to class. =\ This weekend I’ll definitely try to call her … Ack and last night when I got back from work and I was doing homework Eric wanted to call me but I had to be all, “Nuuuuh, hwwww!” and I feel kinda bad (even if we mostly always talk about the same subject and he annoys me most days).
Blame it on bad luck and shake responsibility.
Do you ever wake up to realize your life is meaningless?
Tralalala. Hey love, I miss you<3
Ok… well. Hello, depression.
It had to happen eventually. Happiness is fleeting. Yannoe… just got to wait it out. Wait for tomorrow. Tears in the fabric of my routine. I can’t stray. Just one more week. *sigh* (That’s technically not true… it’s more like 4 more weeks with session F… but can’t think too far in advance or I’ll break down)
The last thing I need right now is loss of vigor. I need it…
Randomly I’d like to say I love my twin’s blogging style. Mad props Victorialee(: Reading her entries inspires me to become a better writer even if her entries are just the mad ramblings of a growing woman. Much Looove to her, man. Seriously.
There are a million things I need to be doing right now. With no motivation to be found. ):
My mother is coming over this weekend… good thing/bad thing? I’m unsure. A little scared, maybe. Things could turn badly so quickly.
So far TODAY three people I follow on Twitter have complained about not being at Comicon. I like noticing trends. Just like everyone was twittering about Dr. Horrible. (Still have no idea who that is or why it’s so cool…)
/end rambling. This is most uninteresting.
First off I just have to say that I slept for 9.5 hours today!!! (: It was interupted sleep, though. Eric thought it funny to call me at 7:20 in the fucking morning. Okay so normally I wouldn’t mind; if you wanna talk I wake up pretty quickly and can get my groove on… but not on the day I made plans to actually sleep. ;-; I gave him my attention for 20 minutes at which point I told him, “Hey…! Okay, yeah I’m going back to sleep.” Then I woke up again at 11:30 because I had a call from Kathleen, but I just turned off the sound. I’m not calling back. I know what she wants!! Lol.
Anyway, the only reason I’m so happy I slept in today was because I haven’t been sleeping much. Yesterday I was seriously going to fall over any second. Luckily I took a 45 minute nap and that semi-saved the day.
Hah… last night I had a bomb threecorrection: four hour long conversation with Kyle! I guess this is a shoutout. Haha… Oh, and hearts to Lindsey! She’s on twitter now. Pwuahaha… corrupting the world one person at a time.
I love Twitter so much I’m even in the Twitterholic database… Hahaha. I’ve made so many friends just from Twitter and remained close with others through it. ^_^
I don’t if it’s being back home… but I’m already a lil’ depressed.
Changing the subject: Mia Michaels’ choreography is simply amazing, breath-taking, stunning… just so powerful. Two of my fave performances last night were choreographed by her:
The first one just gave me CHILLS (and does EVERY TIME I watch it):
And the second one was HOT:
Dancing is just love. It makes me feel.
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